Destroy me - KAI PARKER

41. || M.P

As I walked away from Kai I let out a deep breath and wiped away the tears that had fallen out of my eyes. It wasn't quite easy to maintain the angry and cold facade towards my friends.
Of course I was angry and furious about Kai, but the real feeling inside me was hurt.

I lived 142 years on this planet and never ever have I experienced a feeling like this. I knew with all my heart it was wrong to cry after Kai but I just couldn't prevent myself. He was the person who I thought cared about me- who I thought would put me above everything and anyone else, because I did it for him as well. But I was wrong.

With tears flooding my eyes, I sat down on a bench and tried stopping my eyes from producing that mich water. It was just about 12 pm when I reached the park, but I didn't intend on leaving any soon, so I texted Bonnie that I was alright and just needed some time alone to sort everything out.

At two pm I went to grab myself an ice tea and then went back to just sit down in the sun all by myself and to rethink.

I had to talk to Damon about what happened last night and I had to fugue out if I really loved him or if I just wanted to replace Kai. My life was so completely that I'd rather leave everyone behind and start a new life. Or maybe I should visit Klaus in New Orleans- well no. That might end up messy as well.

When I felt the bench sink a little, I looked to my right to see Kai silently sitting next to me. My Kai limit for that day reached it's highest point, so I just got off the bench and wanted to leave when he suddenly took my hand.

I flinched at his touch, causing him to close his eyes for a while before getting up and bringing ip the courage to look me in the eyes.

"I thought I was clear-"

"You were, but I can't live without you."

A huff escaped my throat. Did he think I was falling for his bullshit again? I wouldn't forgive him in a million years, not even when he would do everything I wanted. I just couldn't look at him without feeling this stinging ache in my heart. My heart- that's supposed to be just a muscle pumping blood through my body hurt everytime I looked at Kai.

"Should've thought about that before killing me."

I wanted to leave, but he once again held me back by my wrist which I immediately removed out of his hand.

"Can I at least try to give you your magic back?"

Wait- That's possible?

"How?"
I asked and tried to not get my hopes up but I was a little bit excited. Since I got back I felt so empty without my magic- I mean it was a part of me for 142 years.

Kai hesitatingly took my hands into his own and then he started mumbling a chant I've never heard of before. But as he went on I could feel magic rushing to my chest and for one second I was happy but that second didn't last long.

The magical feeling in my chest was soon interrupted by a painful scratch that made my breathing increase immensely.

"Kai please- you're hurting me!"

Kai immediately stopped what he was doing and his eyes looked like he was hating himself for what he just did.

"Layla I'm sorry I thought- I would never.."

As I looked down on my cleavage there were two letters carved in and a drop of blood dripped down my chest. Kai also stared at my cleavage trying to figure out what just happened and why his initials were now carved into my skin.

"Layla?"

My head turned to Damon who was jogging towards us now. Oh god- My skin was healing already but Damon was fast enough to see Kais bloody initials on my chest.

"What's that?"

He took my face between his palms to inspect me for any injuries and after he made sure I was okay, hw turned to Kai.

"Did you do that to her?"

"What did you just say?"

I exactly knew where this was going, so I tried to stop Damon by laying my hand on his biceps, but he didn't care about me.

"Did you hurt her?!"

"You really think I would hurt her?"

"Well it happened before-"

There was it again- this fucked up feeling of being reminded how bad it hurt what Kai did to me.

"Layla-"

Kai looked at me but I was just numb. I was staring at the green grass and didn't even care about their fight. I've had enough.

"I swear to god if you laid a hand on her-!"

And that was it for me. I just used my vampire speed to get as far away as possible..