les sequelles - Eric Coulter 1

53. Insecurities

Imagine: Being a curvy woman in Dauntless, and being extremely insecure about it. Eric comforts you and ends up confessing his feelings towards you. 

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You walk through the compound and cover your face with the collar of your shirt; you weren't the skinniest girl in the compound, and being in Dauntless means that you were extremely insecure about being around all these petite, skinny, fit girls. Dauntless' tight clothing style didn't help either, you always feel like you're being stared at and judged and you couldn't stand it. You would stay in the training room every evening in order to work out after training the initiates, but no matter how hard you tried you could not lose weight, you were just naturally chubby. However, your weight did not mean you weren't strong and athletic; your strength was the sole reason that you became a trainer in the first place.

You ran laps around the room until you're gasping for air; you finally give up and sit on the bench, chugging down a bottle of water. You hear the door open and turn your head, seeing Eric walk in. Ah, Eric, the Dauntless leader, who you're desperately in love with, he trains initiates along with you, but you're almost certain that he doesn't even know you exist, why would he?

You quickly pull your collar back up, covering up your double chin as he walks towards you, "Oh hey Y/N, what are you doing in here?"

Wow he actually knows my name, "Oh, I was j-just working out."

Why do I get so nervous when he's around? God, why am I so ugly, "Oh really?"

He raises his eyebrows looking down at the bench. Shit, I guess it doesn't really look I'm working out; I just look like a lazy ass who's sitting on a bench. You nervously giggle, and reflexively pull the collar up higher, "W-well, I was."

He chuckles, carefully examining your face, "Why do you always do that?"

"Huh?" You try to look into his icy gray eyes, but you can't keep eye contact.

"You know," he points at your collar, "that."

"Oh, be-because, I, um, I just," You pause thinking about an excuse, you eventually sigh, "I don't know."

"What do you mean 'you don't know'?" Why can't he just drop this?

"Just drop it Eric, it doesn't matter."

"Yes, yes it does Y/N," He says a little more aggressively,

You pull your collar down and gesture towards your chin, "Because this!"

He lifts your face up towards his and examines is, the smiles gently, "Because what? All I see is a beautiful face."

"What are you trying to do Eric? Why are you telling me these lies, to show that you have power over me, to lead me on and then humiliate me?!" You accuse him, no one has ever complimented you like this and you don't know how to react. You break down and can no longer contain your tears.

"Hey, hey Y/N," He says wiping a few tears off your face, "Y/N, I'm not saying any of this take advantage of you. Honestly, I think you're the strongest woman in this entire faction. I don't care that you're not as fit looking as the others, you have the strength to cope with that and that is what makes me even more attracted to you. You're absolutely beautiful, and I never want to see you covering your face again, I like you Y/N, I really, really like you."

"Y-you do?" You say in shock.

"Of course I do!"

"But I-I'm fa-" He stops you from speaking with a kiss.

After he breaks away, he says, "Don't ever call yourself fat again, you're beautiful. You're perfect."

"Thank you Eric," You smile.

Let's just say, you never covered your face in public after this event. Every day since then, Eric would remind you about how beautiful you were, and now you even believed it.

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