les sequelles - Eric Coulter 1

35. Without You

Imagine being Eric's girlfriend and having to take part in the Abnegation attack.

Warnings: Death, and kind of angsty, sorry!

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Last day of initiation, the day I find out my ranking, my fate in Dauntless. But first, I'll have to go through my fear landscape; I wait outside with my fellow initiates, watching them go in to the room one by one.

"Y/N!" I finally hear, I get a few good lucks before walking into the room, my boyfriend Eric come up to me with the syringe. We started dating one month after initiation started, and have been dating for 4 months now. And yes, I am in love with him, but I haven't been able to build up the courage to tell him, what if he doesn't feel the same?

I snap out of my thoughts as Eric begins to speak, "I'm going to inject you with this serum Y/N, and you're gonna go through all of your fears, the leaders will see what you see, and everyone else will only see your reactions," his face wears the same hard expression as it does when he's near any of the other initiates, but I know it's just a mask, he proves this further when he places his hand in my shoulder and whispers, "Be brave Y/N."

He then injects me, one by one I go through all of my fears, I only have eight, the second lowest number within my group of initiates, Tris had the lowest, 7.

I get out of my landscape in 17 minutes and Eric meets me at the back door of the landscape room, "That was amazing Y/N! You really do belong here," He gives a small smile, but hardens his expression almost immediately.

"Thanks Eric!" I smile back, resisting every urge to kiss him.

"I can't believe that losing me is one of your fears," he says, refer to the fear where I was forced to kill my loved ones. "Well, maybe because I l-" I stop myself before I say it. Shit.

"You what...?" He asks quickly.

"Because I-I would never want to kill a person who has never wronged me," I say confidently, trying to cover my mistake. Eric didn't believe me but just as he was about to say something Max called him back.

"I'll see you in the cafeteria for the rankings," he quickly says as he leaves.

I meet my three best friends Christina, Will, and Tris in the dorm rooms; we still have two hours before we find out what our rankings are.

"Can you believe this will be our last night in this room," Christina says.

"Thank God for that," I laugh. I could not wait to get out of this disgusting dorm room, and get my own apartment.

"Are you guys scared for ranks?" Will asks.

"A little, I just hope I don't have to work on the fence," I say, "I wouldn't want to stay away from the compound for weeks on end."

"Same," Christina groans.

We sitting in the dorm room, watching as the rest of transfers make their way back from their own landscapes, until Four finally comes in to tell us that it was time for our results.

We walked into the cafeteria with the Dauntless-born initiates; some of us wore excited looks on our faces, whereas others looked nervous as hell.

Max gives a speech and then the ranks are posted. Where is it? Where is my name? I'm cut! Shit I've been cut! I scan the bottom of the board and I don't see it, so I slowly work my way up, then I see it:

1. Tris

2. Uriah

3. Y/N