fate

crazy in love

jungkook slowly came out of the blanket. he was a mess. disheveled hair, red swollen eyes, and tears on his cheeks. ji-eun shifted closer to him and hugged him. he hugged her back.

ji-eun: what happened??? tell me.

jungkook: h-he.. i-i... w-we... lo-love.....

ji-eun: shhh.... first stop crying. inhale. exhale. inhale. exhale.

he repeated it a few times. jungkook's breath became much calmer than before. but he was still crying. ji-eun took her phone and put it on a soft piano playlist. they both cuddled for like an hour, with ji-eun whispering sweet nothings to him. jungkook's crying had turned to occasional sniffs. ji-eun was patting his back softly while he hugged her like a koala bear. 

ji-eun: are you ready to talk now???

jungkook: yeah. I think.

ji-eun: is it something related to taehyung?

jungkook nodded. he took a deep breath and started.

jungkook: taehyung. i've met him before. he is... he is....

ji-eun: who is he???

jungkook: he is my ex boyfriend. 

ji-eun: really??? what happened? tell me everything.

jungkook: we were in love. crazy in love. we wanted to be with each other 24/7. couldn't spend a moment without each other. we loved each other so much. i don't know how or why but taehyung thought we should break up. he wanted to break up. i asked him why but he didn't say anything. he had made up his mind to break up. i cried, i begged him to stay but in the end... we broke up. he shifted to US. three years later, here we are... you know ji-eun, he was the my first love. the love of my life. and now he is in love with my daughter. I don't understand why fate made us meet, if we were not destined to be together. it broke my heart to see him lost in jennie. but it's okay. he is a good and compasionate guy. jennie'll be happy. 

ji-eun: fate has truly been harsh on you. but keep trust in god. he must have some plan. did you used to call taehyung bun?

jungkook: how- how did you know?

ji-eun: you still murmur in your sleep sometimes.

jungkook: what do i say?

ji-eun: you usually say things like," I still love you bun, where are you... please come back. love you, bun..." you keep repeating it a lot of times. but you know, i think the song taehyung wrote... i think the song was about you.

jungkook: it can't be about me. he's the one who broke up. he was the one who moved on. it must be about someone else.

ji-eun: it can be. but you can't assume things when you don't know anything. if you both were really crazy in love, then it must have hurt him too.

jungkook: we were. everyone thought we were the perfect couple. the ideal couple. people didn't see us alone anywhere. where one of us would go, the other would follow. i still remember how he would insist that he came to my office everyday in the evening and we go home together after spending some time.

ji-eun: do you have any photos of ya'll?

jungkook: yeah...

jungkook opened his gallyery. there was an album called bun. he opened it.

jungkook: this was when we were celebrating my project's success. the moment i came out of the conference, we went to a bar and celebrated.

jungkook: he was so clingy... i swear. but it was cute.

ji-eun: you loved him very much didn't you?

jungkook: very much. couldn't imagine a day without him.

ji-eun: the main question is do you still do?

jungkook: no... i was just hit with nostalgia when i saw him. that's why i cried.

ji-eun: okay... you should sleep now. let the music go on for your insomnia.