fate

changed

A FEW WEEKS LATER

Taehyung's pov

what the fuck is wrong with jungkook!!!! he was fine till a few weeks ago but suddenly, he has been acting so weird. he was all lovey-dovey with me till a couple of weeks ago and showered me with a lot of affection but these days, he is avoiding me. 

he goes to the office at the crack of dawn and returns home at midnight. he has never done this in his life. he loves to come home and spend time with me but these days, he is spending more and more time in the office. he doesn't pick up my calls and replies to my messages in 1 or 2 words. something is seriously wrong with him. After coming home too, he is cold towards me and avoids me using the excuse that he is tired and needs sleep.

I tried to ask jimin and ji-eun what is wrong with him but they just keep saying that he is just stressed due to work. I tried to ask jennie and yoongi too but they said the same thing. I don't believe them for a second because he doesn't get so stressed due to work that he doesn't want to spend time with me. I am really worried about him.

after college, I went home walking because jungkook used to pick me up but he must be busy in the office. I was thinking about ways to make him open up to me again because it was clear something was wrong and he was not telling me. I decided to make him make love to me. It has been many days since we last made love and he gets really emotional and honest just after making love. he would open up to me then. besides, I really crave his touch. he does not touch me much these days. just a kiss on the cheek while going to the office and a kiss while sleeping.

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Time skip

I was sitting on the sofa watching some random movie. it was 11 pm and my stomach was rumbling from hunger but I was waiting for jungkook to return so we could have dinner together. sometime later, the door opened revealing a very tired jungkook. I took his bag from him and he went to freshen up. he came down a few minutes later wearing his nightdress.

me: come, I have made japchae for you.

Jungkook: I'm not hungry. let's just sleep.

me: but I was waiting for you to have dinner.

jungkook frowned.

jungkook: you've still not had dinner?

I shook my head.

Jungkook: don't wait for me from tomorrow. have your dinner.

I didn't say anything. 

Jungkook: come to the bedroom after eating. I am inside.

Taehyung: at least sit with me. please.

he was about to object but I looked at him with my puppy eyes. he sighed and nodded before pulling a chair and sitting beside me. I forced him to eat a bit with me. we didn't talk the whole time. there was an awkward silence. this was the first time this was happening between us. we were never awkward.

after eating, we both entered the bedroom and lied down next to each other. I turned to him and asked.

me: koo, I want you. can you make love to me?

he looked at me for a moment and and then sighed before replying.

jungkook: I'm sorry tae, maybe tomorrow. I am tired right now.

I looked at him in disbelief but nodded and lay down on the bed facing the other side.

Jungkook: I am really sorry.

me: no, it's okay. I understand.

he wrapped his arm around my waist and fell asleep back hugging me. tears had accumulated in my eyes, threatening to fall. I blinked them away and bit my lip to stop a sob from escaping my mouth. it was really hard. Jungkook has never ever denied to making love to me. no matter how tired he is. there have been times when he would pass out after making love because of how tired he is but he never was too tired to make love to me, or at least talk to me. I am probably over thinking this but I can't help it. I can't help but think that maybe just maybe, there is a possibility that he is falling out of love for me.

I can't imagine what is going to happen to me if that is true. I was hardly able to survive the separation from him the first time, I won't be... this time. I would die if he falls out of love for me. 

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NEXT DAY

I was sitting in college with Anne who is a very good friend of mine now. I just told her everything that has been happening for a few days, so that she could advice me.

Anne: tae, I am not saying that he is doing this... but there is a small possibility that, he might be cheating on you. 

I shook my head.

me: nope. there is absolutely no possibility of him cheating on me. he is Jeon Jungkook. he would rather die than cheat on me. 

but this got me thinking, I am sure he is not cheating on me physically. he would never sleep with another person. but what if he is cheating on me emotionally? I won't be able to blame him for that. you can't control your emotions. what if he has fallen in love with someone else? he won't tell me about it. but he won't go pursue that person as that would be cheating on me. is that why he is miserable? because he is in a relationship he doesn't want?

sorry for this ;) I just love angst