fate

coming to mom

A FEW DAYS LATER

it had been a few days since Anne first joined the university and jennie and lisa were drifting apart. lisa spent every moment with Anne and jennie and she barely acknowledged each other... they had become mere acquaintances now. this was hurting jennie badly but there was nothing she could do.

jennie was walking to her class alone today because taehyung was sick and could not come to college. she was walking to her class when she saw lisa coming towards her with a huge smile on her face... she was relieved that lisa finally pretended to at least know her... she waved to lisa...

BUT.

lisa walked past her and went and hugged Anne who was standing behind her. Jennie's smile dropped. she went directly to the roof. she sat in the corner and hugged her knees.

Jennie's pov

I was trying to stop the tears that were threatening to fall. seeing you like this completely ignoring me and looking at Anne with heart eyes made me want to die. dying each day and every single moment I saw you with her was the harsh reality of my life, while the prettiest lie was me convincing myself that you are still my lisa and still care about me.

I had reached my limit. I couldn't hold back my tears. I let them out breaking down completely. I pressed my palm against my mouth trying to hold back the sobs, not that anyone would hear me here.

I hugged my knees and stayed there the whole day. after college ended, I went back to my house, walking. I plopped on my bed the moment I reached my room. I was exhausted. mentally and physically. the door opened a few minutes later.

Mom: jen, you okay?

I nodded, my face still buried in my pillow. she came and sat next to me and ran a hand through my hair.

Mom: is it about someone you like?

I didn't reply. I continued crying into the pillow. Mom made me sit up and look at her.

Mom: it's completely okay that you like someone. and it's normal to feel to hide it from your mother. but I think I can help you a bit with it. I've had a lot of experience with this

she wiped my tears and asked.

Mom: what's his name?

I realized I still hadn't told Mom about my sexuality.

me: m-mom, I need to tell you s-something.

Mom: I'm listening.

me: I am... I am.

mom: it's okay. I'll accept it no matter what it is. did you lose your virginity?" are you pregnant?

me: no... nothing like that.

Mom: listen, I got pregnant very young. that was a mistake I made and my parents kicked me out of the house for that. I know what it's like to be scared of telling your parents something huge. don't worry I am going to support you no matter what.

me: I'm bisexual. I know it is not like an ideal daughter and I am sorry but...

Mom: hey!!! stop it! who said being bi means you aren't an ideal daughter? you are the best daughter in this world! and who cares if you are bi? it's not as if you are going to die. you just like girls too. that's it.

me: thank you! thank you for accepting me! I thought you would be upset or something.

Mom: what the fuck jen? I literally helped your dad get together with his 'boyfriend'. was I upset at him for being bi?

me: I was just scared.

Mom: hey, it's okay. now if you don't mind me asking... is it lisa?

me: huh?

Mom: is lisa the girl you've been crying for?

I was shocked! how did you know that?

me: how did you know that?

Mom: I'm good at recognizing people's emotions. now, she broke your heart! big deal!!!

me: you just want me to act like it means nothing?

mom. no... it is a big deal, but it is not the end of the world! she's not the only one. you can get someone. I know it is hard to move on... but you can't just keep crying about it can you?

me: no...

Mom: your dad's heart was broken. but he didn't keep crying. he moved on. By moving on, I don't mean to find someone new... I mean to get on with life... so, will you do that?

me: yeah.

Mom: so now, call jisoo and tell her you are going to a party. she had called earlier because there is a party at Jackson's house but I told her you are not feeling well because you were crying. but now, give her a call and tell her to pick you up in an hour.

me: okay. 

mom: and cheer up. you are not going to a funeral.

I giggled. mom always knew how to make me laugh.

mom: today, it's an exception.

me: from what?

mom: wear the sexiest dress you can find. find someone at the party to hook up. I don't want you coming home at night. go hook up with someone. but this is a one-time thing... I am not going to allow these conditions again.

I had the best mom ever!!!! I got up and got ready.