Sleep In Paradise

Chapter 32

I am holding the strap of my shoulderbag while walking in the hallway of the hospital, not minding what's with my surroundings.

I sloppy stopped infront of Dr. Lopez's office. I've missed in my estate of three months of check up. Sumama ang loob ko sa kanya by the thought of spitting nonsense. I was about to believe on him. Sino ba naman ang mag eexpect pwede kang mamatay sa hindi lang pagtulog?

Napailing nalang ako habang iniisip yon.

I exhale a large amount of air before I held the door knob to open and get in. I saw Dr Lopez busy of something so I just walks slowly to the couch just not to distract him but I think he felt my presence as he glanced at me and furrowed his browse.

"Finally! Finally! You came for god's sake! Where the hell have you been for not taking check ups huh!? Maria Gwyneth!? You spend all those weeks of studying and doing hard works again!?"

Napatitig lang ako sa kanya. Hindi ko pinaniwalaan na kaligtasan ko lang ang intensyon nya. Kaya pala ganun nalang ang pag aalala nya sakin.

"S-sorry Doc. Lopez but I can't keep myself of letbe my school works and my jobs at night. I need to do that for my fa-"hindi ko natapos ang pagsisinungaling ko. That isn't actually a lie. Kase itinrabaho ko lahat ng oras ko.

Ayaw ko lang sabihin sa kanya na may pagtitimpi ako sa pagsisinungaling nya sakin.

"God! That family! You're almost dying for heaven's sake but you still care of them! They can still work at their own Gwy! Malalakas pa sila! Wag mo hayaan na ang pamilya mo pa ang dahilan ng pagkamatay mo-"

"Hindi ako mamatay doc. I'll swear. And I would never let that happen. My siblings were still not graduated so I don't deserve to die early! I'm doing my best for them to graduate before I die as what you're saying." I'm almost panting while saying those words infront of Dr. Lopez.

"That's all what I mean. If you really wants to get alive, if you still wants to help your siblings, your family, then be serious. Always take a check ups couz these are just for you. I didn't want to disappoint you Gwyneth. Do you even taking your medicines"

Natigilan ako sa tanong nya. Hindi ko alam ang isasagot. Sa dami kasi ng mga gawain ko, hindi ko na naaalala ang pag inom ng gamot.

"I'm waiting on your answer Gwy, and I'm expecting you'll not going to tell me a lie." he's now piercing his gaze on my eyes which made me looked away.

"Uh... I... I'm taking my medicines d-doc. P-pero minsan nakakalimutan ko-"

"How could you! You're really making your sick worse! Bakit mo nagagawang kalimutan ang mismong pag inom na lang ng gamot!?" he stood up and almost yelled at me of so much anger, he looks like a science experiment that would going to explode at any time. All I see on his eyes now is anger. He sat on his swiveling chair again massaging the bridge of his nose trying himself to calm.

I bit my lower lip and looked up to stop tearing. I felt guilty. He's doing the best for me, he just wants me to take care of my health but its just me, no pala... Hindi ko naman sinasadya na makalimutan ang mga bagay na dapat kong ginagawa para ma-agapan ang sakit na namumuo sa utak ko.

"S-sorry. I'd try my best to care of my health now."

"Don't say you'd just 'try' Gwyneth,say 'I will,' instead. I don't think if I could trust your words. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na padalhan kita ng nurse na laging sasamahan ka kahit saan."

"N-no doc. I- I will. I will." I gave him a wide smile to ease his pressure.

"Ok nevermind. Let's just start to check out what's going on with your health."