MIKAEL'S

~IKHLAS~

To: Encik Mikael,

             Tis I, Nabilah, a.k.a. Katak. The one to whom you said "budak tadika," "pendek," and "katak, and the rapper to whom you said "cakap mcm orang tak ada gigi." I've got nice teeth, okay! The dentist said that to me.

           I hope you're doing well. The same goes for my precious Mikayla. I hope she's doing great. I miss talking to her. Tell her that I miss her so damn much! Thank you for appearing in my life. Even though we're always arguing, I find it amusing. We argued every day, which made my day complete every day.

         Day by day, I've had a chance to get to know you, and even though we've only known each other for a short period of time, I'm really grateful to have met someone like you. Your coldness makes me calm. I don't know why. You make me feel safe, even though you make me want to punch you every single day. Your coldness makes me comfortable with you. I've never felt this comfort when talking to any guys, even though they're my friends. But, you. Yes, you. Make me feel comfortable. I don't know how to describe it.

         I never thought about my feelings or anything else at that time because I'm scared to fall in love again. I'm afraid that after my father and my brother, l've never met a guy who can make me feel safe and comfortable. It's given me a mixed signal for a long time. It took me quite some time to realise that I have feelings for you. By the time you're "gone," it took me almost 3 months or until the end of 2022 to realise it. I don't have any expectations for you to like me back. I'm here to make my confession to you. I already keep it for a long time after you've "gone".

       I hope you understand what I said. Kalau tak faham jugak, baca dan hadam la sampai faham. Itu masalah encik bukan masalah saya. Siapa suruh tak faham.*evil laugh Saya dah grad tau. Kawan saya ckp saya mcm pakai abaya bila pakai jubah convo tu. Saya dh dpt result utk sijil translation. Saya dpt kepujian. Saja nk flex kan. Bukan selalu. I've got the certificate because I passed the test, and with that certificate, I can be a freelance translator if I want to! I'm smart, aren't I? See you very soon!

Fi amanillah, Uhibbuka fillah.

Your katak, Nabilah