A Very Personal Entry From My Diary.

Saturday, March 19th, 2011

Saturday, March 19th, 2011

11:16 am

Dear Diary,

Have you ever wondered if you’re doing the right thing? That maybe what’s best for you could hurt others? I feel that way right now, and I can’t help but wonder. Is this really what’s best? I feel like my decisions have become selfish, and that a lot of people could get hurt because of that.

Let me freshen you up briefly: I’m now being moved up to the high school. Tyler’s become this unbearable jerk, and I’m sick of it. I’ve got no one to talk to. So, I told my mom yesterday, and we talked to the principal. She let me move up.

I only know a few of the high school kids, and I’m mega-nervous that this won’t work out.

I’m also worrying about everyone else. What about Jacob? He’s so sweet, and Tyler just loves to be a jerk to him. I was really his only friend — or, at least, the only one willing to help him. And what about poor Double J? Gosh, he’s just about the sweetest guy ever! Tyler’s bound to walk all over him! Oh, and Aaron! Tyler loves to kick Aaron, too!

Maybe this wasn’t such a good idea. There are a lot of people who need me.

Oh, old friend, what do you think? Am I being silly? Too motherly? It’s just who I am — I have to be the strong and caring one to everyone. I have to protect them from harm — no matter how much pain it may cost me in turn.

You know, I really think Tyler’s jerkiness is a defensive thing. He’s not coming back to {school} next year, so maybe this is his way of coping. But, who knows what his problem is?

Well, I think I’ve wasted enough of your time with this hopeless teenage drama. ’Bye!

Love,

Alison

11:36 am