A Very Personal Entry From My Diary.

Monday, April 25th, 2011 (Part 2)

Monday, April 25th, 2011

7:21 pm

Dear Diary,

I had written Tyler a letter. He may never read it, but, dang, did it feel good to write. I felt the truth behind all those words, and it was the greatest feeling. It was like I could finally breathe after so long of being deprived; like coming alive again after death; like seeing the light after being locked in the dark. Does that make any sense?

Here, I shall tell you what it says:

“Dear Tyler,

I know that you hate me, and you’re probably never going to read this, but I can’t help but try.

I want you to know that I don’t hate you. I bet you think I’m lying when I tell you that, but it’s true. I could never hate you.

I don’t know why you acted the way you did, but I trust that you had your reasons.

I’ll probably never see you again after this, but I hope that our paths may cross again someday. I hope your time is spent with much happiness and prosperity.

Sincerely,

Your Friend Though You Refuse To Admit It,

Alison”

I dunno, what do you think? Too formal? Too desperate? Too much emotion? I was really proud of it, eager to see his reaction once he read it; but now I’m beginning to doubt it.

I don’t know what my point of that letter is. Maybe it was just a way to get my emotions on our whole situation out? Maybe a way to let him know that I still cared; that I’m still there for him no matter the pain he’s caused me? Who knows? It could be as simple and selfish as to show him that I’m stronger than he’ll ever know.

Maybe this is just too much a struggle; maybe I shouldn’t send the letter.

Nonsense, Aly! Tyler deserves the truth, and that I should be willing to give him.

Oh, let’s face it.

I’m hopelessly in love with Tyler {middle and last name}.

Love,

Alison

7:42 pm