A Very Personal Entry From My Diary.

Saturday, March 19th, 2011 (Part 2)

Saturday, March 19th, 2011

4:33 pm

Dear Diary,

Have you ever felt so guilty? Have you ever wanted to help someone so much, bug wasn’t sure how? Have you ever wanted to see someone happy, but know that you shouldn’t get involved?

I want my mom to be happy — I want her to find love. She’s done so much for Sophie and me … she deserves the best man in the world.

My mom is so strong, so brave. I look up to her so much, but I also want to help out. There’s not a mom in the world that can do all of what she’s done — who has even a small portion of the strength and courage she has!

I want to grow up and be as great a mom as her, but I probably couldn’t.

And how am I wanting to show my gratitude toward her? By helping her out a little. I try not to depend on her so much, to make her job just a little easier in any way I can. Which is hard since I still need her so much.

I love my mom so very much. There’s nothing about her that I could change. She’s perfect just the way she is.

And I just know that someday, someone else will see this, too, and treat her the way that he should. If he doesn’t, then he should expect a visit from an angry little someone who will kick his butt. ;) I’m scary when I want to be.

Hopefully that “someday” will come soon. I know that she won’t admit it to anyone, and maybe that’s because she thinks she doesn’t want someone.

Oh well. I’m blabbering and probably thinking of something that will never happen.

Love,

Alison

4:52 pm