A Very Personal Entry From My Diary.

Saturday, March 5th, 2011

Saturday, March 5th, 2011

12:48 pm

Dear Diary,

I don’t know what’s going on. I’m just … indifferent. I’m not sad, angry, or happy. I feel antisocial in every way. I just want to stay locked in my room all day long. I’m not even sure why.

School has been … okay. Tyler’s acting bipolar. Sometimes I know he hates me. Other times I think we’re friends again. Nobody treats me any differently since Tyler and I stopped hanging out. I’m kind of glad about that.

I’ve been really tired lately. I just want to sleep. That’s all I want to do. I don’t get why, though.

I’m always thinking. Ever since Tyler told me he hates me, I can’t help but think. I reflect on my life. You know, no matter how many times I look over a mistake, I can’t regret it. I keep wondering what my purpose in life is. Am I meant to be a memorable leader or voice of the people or mind of the wise? I know it’s probably conceited to think so highly of myself, but I have this gut-deep feeling that I am destined for greatness outside of this town. Now, don’t get me wrong; I love [city] and everything about it. But, can one really put her mark on the world when one is as silent as I am? No, she cannot.

Note my words: I will be known to all someday for greatness!

Love,

Alison

1:02 pm