Save My Sparkle (Completed)

44. News

Upon making it to the emergency room I find Jack immediately.

"Have you heard anything in the last couple of minutes?"

He shakes his head. "No, the nurse at the desk said she would let me know something once she knows."

I sigh and sit in the chair next to where Jack was before he stood up when he seen me. A moment later the door where I came out of opens again this time it is Hollie.

"Anything?" She looks to Jack and he tells her the same as he told me.

"Did he look off? Get to hot? Was he drinking plenty between sessions?" She goes into doctor mode instantly asking things I didn't even think to ask.

"He was drinking like normal, Snowflake. The building was the same as normal temp. He was just talking normal one second and went down the next." Jack guides Hollie to sit in the chairs as he explains.

Hollie grabs my hand and I look over to her instesd of looking at the floor that I started staring at while listening to them talk. My mind is blank but feels muddled all at the exact same time.

"Are you okay?" Hollie looks at me and I can see the unshed tears in her eyes.

It breaks everything in me and I shake my head. "Shouldn't I be asking you that?" I ask honestly, she is his mother in every sense and has been since he was a child.

With seeing her tears though it makes me want to cry something fierce. It takes everything in me to breath and it is a light breathing so not to spill the tears as I mentally count numbers to think of something else, anything else other than the love of my life, my fiancée, laying unconicous on a bed in one of those rooms not knowing what is going on.

Could I have been so naive as to not pay enough attention that his health has been taking a change?

Oh God, I should have got him checked sooner! It has to be my fault since he has been tired and that was one thing to watch for him but he has been insisting that it is because of everything going on.

"It is my fault." I break finally realizing it all.

"How is that?" Jack squats down in front of Hollie and I were his hands are on her knees.

I tell them the thoughts that just ran through my head and they both shake their heads at me saying it isn't my fault at all neither is it Nicolas'. It doesn't do much as it was enough thoughts to make the tears spill from my eyes.

"Let's just wait and see what the doctors say and find. Okay?" Jack whispers and then pulls Hollie and I into a hug together with him.

My eyes even though watery can make out the Hollie had started silently crying too.

"Do you think it's the cancer? Or could it be something else?" Hollie barely gets out looking to Jack.

"I don't know but it seems just like deja vue all over again, Snowflake. Only thing is we are over twenty years later. We knew these was a chance several months back but let's just see what the doctors say before we do or think to far ahead, no blaming ourselves nor Nicolas for anything. Wasted engery on blame definitely isn't needed right now for any of us." Jack sighs with a sad look.

Hollie and I both nod because it does make sense.

"I just wish we had answers. It is the hardest waiting and not knowing what is going on, especially when it is my baby in there." Hollie whispers and then takes a deep breath.

"I agree with you." I mumble and wipe my eyes with a tissue I pulled out of my purse. Handing one to Hollie.

"Mama? Dad?" I hear Eve's voice and then a soft baby cry.

Looking up Eve sits the baby carseat on the floor by mine and Hollie's feet. I turn it around and give a tight smile to Hinsel, as his little eyes try to take everything in around him. How it would be nice to be so little and not knowing what is happening to love ones around us.

There is still nothing I would change. I would be here and never leave Nicolas. He is the love of my life and I will forever be here no matter but I try to get my mind to start thinking positive.

Jack explains everything to Eve and I hand her a tissue when she looses hold on her tears just as Hollie and I have done.

We all are sitting in the chairs lined against the wall. Massie and Jewels came down on their breaks hoping we have heard something but we haven't. It has now been five hours since and every hour Jack checks with the nurse at the desk for news on anything. Something I am glad he is strong enough to do because if I try to speak his name the tears want to run down my face even though I am trying to stay positive still until we know.

Maybe the doctors found something and are trying to help. Maybe he just passed out from exhaustion and they are waiting on tests to come back, because doing the full works on tests could take a long time.

Tony walks in and is holding a bag. He talks to Jack as they hand out mini subs to all of us.

"You need to all eat. He would get mad if any of you got sick." Tony sighs and it is enough to make me open the wrapper and start nibbling on the sub.

Tony is right and I know it. Even if I am not hungry, I can't let my strength go down and get sick, no one in this family needs that. I have done texted my parents and Chrissy but let them know to stay home and I would keep them informed once they said they wanted to come to sit with us.

"I have an update on Nicolas." Dr. Moore speaks up since none of us seemed to have noticed he came up.

We all stand up and I swear this man never gives anything away with his facial expressions.

"I gave Nicolas a transfusion his platelet count is way to low to start." He sighs and looks at us.

"What else is it Dr. Moore?" I speak up since everyone else has been silent.

"Several other blood counts are to low or some to high. This is the worse news possible because should his condition not be so bad we could start treatments but currently I have to get his body up to the range it could tolerate chemotherapy again."

"Again." Eve whimpers.

Dr. Moore looks down briefly then back up to all of us. "His cancer has returned and it is showing stronger than when he was a child with how much faster it progressed to this point."