Save My Sparkle (Completed)

33. I Never Knew

Nicolas lays me down and slowly removes himself. There is a soreness that has set in since we have just been holding each other close as our hands roam still with sweet kisses shared. That was until he started getting hard again and doesn't think I could handle a round two right now, which I disagree because being with him in that way is addicting with just the one time so I'd gladly take the soreness or not being able to walk straight.

Lost in my own thoughts I hadn't realized Nicolas went into the bathroom and came back with a warm cloth. He moves my legs and wipes me with tender care. I can tell there is a small amount of blood on the cloth from losing my virginity. The warmth on the cloth helped to soothe the soreness though.

"Thank you." I can feel as my cheeks flush with heat. "I would've done that."

"There isn't a need for you to do it when I'm around." Nicolas smiles softly then leans over to kiss me lightly. "Give me a few minutes and I'll have us a snack ready."

"Sounds great." I smile and he walks to the bathroom before coming out naked and walking towards the door.

"Find us something to watch." He points to his large TV in front of the bed.

I roll over and grab the remote. When I sit up, my eyes spot a small area on the sheet where the blood collected. Getting up, I walk over to the dresser and pull a new set of sheets out and change the bedspread within a few minutes time, throwing the dirty sheets in the hamper off in the corner.

After the sheets are changed, I get back in bed and see that Tootles has pulled his bed into the room and laying on it just off to the side. I can't help but snicker while grabbing the remote and flipping through the movies on the list to watch from. Just as I settle on a movie we had already seen before just because it was a good one and I don't want to pay complete attention to a new film currently either, incase I do fall asleep before it is over. Nothing is worse than missing part of the movie and not seeing the ending, I would have to go back to watch the end part I missed and that gets annoying too.

"What were you snickering about?" Nicolas smirks walking in with a tray piled with different junk foods and some canned sodas.

"Just seeing Tootles pulled his bed in here with the door open and how he watched us. That was a bit creepy."

Nicolas laughs and gets on the bed with me. "We may need to close the door if he tends to be a watcher."

I grab the bag of cookies and pull one out, with Nicolas opening us up some drinks.

"You changed the sheets." Nicolas notices and then looks to me.

"I needed too, there was some blood on the others. Tomorrow, I will spray and wash them so it doesn't stain."

"It doesn't matter if it does stain. Besides, I see it as a memory for us both." Nicolas smiles.

"That would be weird though seeing stains on it." I shrug in between bites of the cookie, letting the buttery chocolate melt on my tastebuds.

"Not necessarily, since women having menstrutal cycles probably have some stains on sheets."

"True but I always know when mine is coming on and then purposely have two sets of sheets just for when it happens." I snicker with those old sheets.

"Just a part of life." Nicolas shrugs while taking a bite of his cookie.

"Here I thought people get grossed out over such a thing." I laugh.

"It is a normal part of the body function. There is something else that happens naturally that we need to talk about since we just had the time together we did and I lost control."

"What is that?" I look from the television back to him from having just turned to look at it.

Nicolas looks a bit nervous. "I comed in you Angel, even though I don't know my chances of having a child after the treatments I had as a child there is always that risk. I had thought when I found the right person I would get tested to see if anything was affected but I hadn't got to having that done for myself."

"It doesn't bother me either way if you can or if you can't. I know what my heart wants and I don't plan to ever let you go unless you want to go somewhere off and if this happened to make a mini us then I wouldn't force you to be tied down if you didn't want to be." I answer honestly without even thinking, but it is all true with how I feel.

"I want to be tied down to you nothing will change that, I love you so very much Natalie and I would take care of you and the baby should we have one. I was nervous to mention it but I knew it would hit you eventually because I don't figure you are on anything to be protected. I love kids and I'll be honest because I worried about being able to pass on my medical issues."

"No, I am not protected against it." I sigh and then sink down in the bed some, while looking over at him feeling my core throb at such a fine specimen that is all mine. Wow I just felt possessive. "I could get on some though if you want me too or we could just go with the flow and let nature take course. Either way I am okay with and would be happy because I am with you."

"It doesn't bother you that a biological child of mine could inherit the cancer I had as a child?"

I shake my head and then roll towards him. "No it really don't. That is how deep my love it for you, Nicolas, plus there is a chance the baby wouldn't have it."

"Fuck it, let's just see what happens. That way we aren't old and gray by time they are teens." Nicolas smiles wide matching mine.

I can't help it but I move to straddle his lap while pulling the sheets to where I can feel him on me. His cock hard as ever, my core rubs over him and I can tell how wet I am. All traces of the soreness long since forgotten.

"I love you." I whisper as my hands glide up his body and my lips hover over top of his.

A half eaten cookie drops from his hands and he holds my waist under the sheets as I move my body making his log line up at my enterance. "I love you so much Angel, you are my everything."

"I never knew I needed it but you did save my sparkle when no one else ever could and I will always love you and be here for you." I kiss him tenderly just as I slowly sink him back inside of me.