Save My Sparkle (Completed)

51. Needs To Know

How can I have let something this huge slip past me? Did I let it slip past me?

I shake my head and clear the thoughts.

Then I start counting in my head. I move Tootles to the floor and then get my phone on the coffee table a little over arms length away. I unlock my phone going to the calendar I look all in the month of March.

My heart beats incredibly fast as my mind is to slow with catching up to the meaning of it all. Going to Feburary's calendar I can see the little red mark showing my cycle but I never put it down for the month of March and thinking on it hard I never had a cycle.

I haven't had a menstration time since before Nicolas was admitted into the hospital and not since the very beginning of Feburary. Which doing some extra counting I was ovulating valentines day and we were active around that time for sure.

"Okay?" Chrissy looks at me and smiles wide at me even though I have internal turmoil happening.

"I. Uh. I think so?"

She tilts her head and then unlocks the brakes on her wheelchair. It makes Bubbles jump up from the floor and Tootles does the same. Chrissy rolls back and then looks at me with a raised eyebrow. "Follow me." She smiles then moves towards her room.

I do as she said and she moves over to the desk in her room. Not understanding what she was wanting to do I stand awkawardly by the door since that is her crafting desk.

"This is for you." She hands me a box.

One look tells me it is a pregnancy test.

"Why did you have this?" I look at her.

There is a part of me that is grateful since I don't have to go to the store now to confirm what I think all of this means.

"For you." She smirks. "Active and I am not."

She shoos me to the bathroom across the hall that we grew up sharing. I walk in and close the door, the box weighs heavy in my hand.

Sure Nicolas and I were not careful, never have been. We didn't care and wanted to make a baby together. However, I have no clue how he may feel about it all because this wasn't in the plan for us with his cancer actually being back. Nicolas was so sure that it wasn't and even I was hopefully the things were flukes back when we officially met since the follow up scans and test came back better, basically normal.

"Take it!" Chrissy yells from the other side of the door.

My sister knows me well. Not that it is a little creepy she is able to hear if I am peeing or not since it is way to quiet in the house. Makes me happy Mom and Dad must have left the house because those two got to where they are always talking now and I can't hear them at all.

Finally, I open the box and pull the stick out. I follow the basic instructions, yes I looked because I was not sure how long to pee on this end piece things. With it doing its own little thing, I wash my hands then open the bathroom door.

"Done?" Chrissy smirks.

"It is processing." I nod and we go to her bedroom for the time we have to wait.

I collapse on her bed on my back. "What am I going to do Chrissy? I mean I hadn't even been home for any length of time since Nicolas got admitted to the hospital. Heck, I don't even wash my clothes because Jack or Eve takes them. He says they wants to do it because they goes home and is home of nights since I don't want to leave Nicolas any length of time. I don't even stay here long enough to wash and dry clothes."

My leg is slapped and I raise my head up to see Chrissy with her hand raised.

Guess that is one way to end my mini freak out or rant.

"He will be happy." She smiles softly at me.

I take in a deep breath and nod.

"Are you happy?" She looks at me waiting for my reply without pushing me to answer fast.

Am I freaking out? A little bit, yes, because I am more concerned how Nicolas will react. Plus on all the stress I had been under, I wouldn't want to harm an unborn baby we made with our love. I hadn't ate properly over the last month at all. Sure I eat but it isn't always the healthest of meals and I have missed meals not even realizing it.

But I can say I am happy without a doubt that there is a possibility of a little one we made together.

"Yes, I am happy with it but I also don't want to get hopes up without knowing results." I nod and she nods with me then looks at her phone.

"Time is up." She squeals and rolls her chair faster than even I can move on two legs.

Once in the bathroom she moves to where I can get to the counter. I move the clean piece of paper from over the top where I have the stick laying on some trash paper.

Positive. Two pink lines.

"Auntie?" Chrissy asks from behind.

I turn around and nod. "Yeah, you're going to be an Auntie."

Chrissy squeals then holds her phone up pointing to me. "Call Massie."

I pull my phone out and send her a quick text to see if she is working today and if so to see if she has time for me. All while not telling Hollie anything.

Massie tells me come on in to her office when I get to the hospital and since it is a clinical matter she can't tell anyone, which I am thankful for.

Hollie can't find out yet. First, Nicolas needs to find out. Sure Chrissy found out first with me but she gave me the test and I wasn't waiting to take it, plus I am glad my sister was here to find out with me. Then Massie will know but she can confirm this all first.

I give Chrissy a hug and leave out after telling Mom, Dad, and Tootles bye too since they hadn't went anywhere. The trip to the hospital takes no time and I am in Massie's personal office. We go through the normal questions as she makes up a chart for me and then takes me to where they do ultrasounds, while telling me normally the ultrasound tech would be doing this she would since it is the end of the day for everyone else.

Sure enough the pregnancy is confirmed and I am officially due middle of November.

My mind is on over drive but all happiness now, with some nerves as I want to make it special for Nicolas. His birthday is coming up but it will be a early surprise or gift for him. How to tell him though? Let's go see what I can find before he would normally wake from his nap because he needs this news and needs to know tonight.