Game of the Insane (Yandere Haikyuu!! x F!Reader Oneshots)

DESPERATION (Kageyama Tobio)

A request from my Tumblr. I feel like this oneshot turned out kind of weirdly cheesy but I wasn't sure how else to write it.

Title: Desperation

Pairings: Kageyama Tobio x Reader

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, parental abandonment, referenced cheating (not on you), swearing, murder, reader's kinda lowkey messed up

Summary: You're just as desperate for love as Kageyama is for yours.

desperation

/noun/

a state of despair, typically one which results in rash or extreme behavior:

Kageyama wasn't sure what caused his tendency to latch onto others.

Perhaps it was his mother leaving him when he was just seven years old- walking out the door, never to return. He couldn't comprehend that fact at that age and his father was too distraught to explain it well. So maybe it started then.

Or maybe it started when his first girlfriend cheated on him. Someone he was supposed to trust stabbing him in the back could be the cause of his clinginess, right?

Whatever it was, he couldn't help but latch onto the girl he liked at the time. When you came along, it only got worse.

He went from liking a girl to loving her, and, when it came to you, he fell headfirst into the deep end.

He was afraid to ask you out, even if he had the feeling you might accept, because you might say no. And he couldn't stand even the thought of losing you.

He did everything he could to keep you nearby- carrying your books for you, sitting near you, eating lunch with you, walking you home... and you accepted it all with a happy smile and light flush to your cheeks.

He was glad you accepted those offers because, if you didn't, he might just lose it.

He wasn't happy with being "just friends", but he was terrified of scaring you away. He'd keep on being friends for eternity if that's what it meant.

But then, you did the unthinkable.

You said "yes" to the first guy who asked you out. You barely even knew him!

Kageyama cursed himself for not asking you out sooner, he cursed you for saying "yes", and, most of all, he cursed that wretched bastard for daring to take you away.

It wasn't fair that you turned your sweet smiles and blushes to anyone but him.

Maybe that's why he couldn't stop himself when he got the guy alone.

A crime of passion, they might say. Too sweet a phrase for bashing a guy's head in and planning to bury him on the school grounds with a rusty old shovel.

The gym door creaked open behind him and his body went stiff. Would he have to kill an innocent person just to keep his secret? Would he even be able to catch them in time?

His heart sunk when he realized who had caught him. Of everyone in the school, why you?

You'd come looking for your boyfriend, and now you stopped dead in your tracks, blood draining from your face.

"Why?" you asked, so quietly Kageyama almost couldn't hear you.

It was best to be honest, right?

"I love you," he admitted, rather bluntly for a murderer, he thought.

He didn't deserve your love at all, not after what he just did. He didn't deserve anyone's love.

And yet, you smiled at him as though all of your prayers had been answered. As though you'd never been told you were loved, and maybe you hadn't.

"I- I love you too!" You were dripping with eagerness, your voice breathless from the confession, giddy with excitement because somebody loved you enough to kill for you.

Kageyama was surprised by how genuine you sounded. You didn't seem to be lying to him to stay alive. But he wasn't complaining.

He decided to test your honesty a little more.

"Can you carry the shovel then? It's hard to carry his body and the shovel at the same time."

"Of-of course!" You said, just as breathlessly as before, "Where are we going?"

"To bury his body in the woods behind the school," Kageyama replied bluntly, sure that this is where you would back out.

"Okay!" You said, as happily as if he'd asked you on a date. You practically skipped with the shovel and smiled the whole time you watched him bury your boyfriend's body.

He never told me he loved me, and Kageyama did. That's all I've ever wanted to hear.

Kageyama reached a dirt-covered hand out to you and you took it immediately. A small smile spread across his face.

"Will you do me the honor of being my girlfriend?"

"Yes!" you squealed happily.

It was like a dream to him, walking hand-in-hand with you back up to the school to wash up. To you, it was a dream just to be loved.

After all, it's not like you truly cared for either of them.