Thoughts I Had Today

(5) Tell me... have we drifted?

My days have been listless.
I wake up feeling tired because of the lack of sleep,
Then go about my day trying to get through it, never once thinking of them.
Yet every time I scroll down past conversations and your name appears, I always wonder now..
"Have you start to hate me now?"
"I wonder how they are"
I feel like with the last conversation we had, I feel as though I didn't do enough, that I should've said more.
But I know you just want time for yourself.
To think things through.
Although, this waiting makes me anxious because.. what if we can't go back to how we were?
Then blame myself, even though it wasn't my fault, but someone else's.
I still somehow feel like I held accountability.
I hope our dreams for the future doesn't fall apart,
I hope you'll still smile at me, laugh with me,
On our next meeting.
I hope you'll still hug me the same.
"I hope you're doing okay"