Thoughts I Had Today

(1) To: Bonnie <3

Dearest Bonnie,

I looked back on my secret account recently and scrolled down to read my old posts, just because I couldn't sleep - and because I felt like re-opening that time capsule I never thought I'd open again.

I realised that I have forgotten how sad I was back then, and how I had so much hatred locked up inside my heart.
Hatred within myself, to people, to the world, to life. To everything.

I also realised that I feel those feelings less nowadays, which makes me happy I suppose.
And that during those long ugly periods in my life, I always thought I had no one to confide in and that no one would understand. But you helped me remember that I am wrong.

It is the simple things that really matter don't they?
The "how are you?", "wanna call?", "are you okay?", "wanna talk about it?" And the "good mornings and goodnights."

I am really happy to have met you.

I know that life is a bit of an ass to us right now (in fact to everyone we know... because of deadlines andksj), but at the end of the day you have reminded me that we have people in our lives that care and sees us for who are, and that they will never turn a blind eye when we are hurting.

I will try my very best to learn to not be afraid when it comes to reaching out to someone when I need it the most, and if you ever feel the same way, just remember that you have me to ask how your day is going!

I appreciate you and I love you very much.

Thank you for always being there, even during the times when I forget. But I also hope you know that you have me too!

And incase you forget too, I'll remind you like how you reminded me :)

With lots of love,
Your Cielo <3