Tides of Love

Chapter 33

"You should be, you should be fucking sorry for not realizing how hurt your finger was or for leaving without informing me, you should be sorry for coming home alone at night and you should be sorry for hurting my baby but you do not apologize for waht that bastard did because I'll make sure of it that he apologizes till his last breath. You are perfect for me and no you are not leaving me" he says

"Your mom"

"Fuck her, I don't give a shit what she says or threatens you with, you come to me, you don't keep it in. I am telling you this the last time"

"I understand" I whisper

His hands touch my legs as I see him pulling my shorts up for me, I lift up sliding them on. He then grabs a little throw over blanket covering me up, he picks me up and then my phone taking me to his car. I don't question anything, I just is quietly in his arms

He brings me to his house, shutting the lights as we make our way to his room. he dims the lights in the room and pulls the curtains right away, I hold onto the blanket when he goes t the bathroom.

I felt like a weight had been lifted off me in a way, because I have never told such details to anyone, not even navya and cabir.

"Lay down" he says coming out in sweats and a st shirt

His hair wet, his arms a bit bit too, he didn't dry off

"You will catch a cold" I whisper

"I won't" he say placing his towel on the side to let dry

"Manik" I whisper

He sighs grabbing the towel wiping his hair, I giggle a little as his messy hair falls on his forehead, a soft smile forms on his lips as well and I knew it was because he heard me giggling

"I am sorry mani" I whisper as he lays beside me

"Why?" He asks

"For being so bad" I whisper

"Nandini I love you and those 30 minutes where I was scrambling around trying to see where you were when I could reach you were the scariest moments of my life, It freaked me out so bad that I might be losing you. I didn't know where you were or when you left, I didn't know anything and to walk into you bleeding but not even a hint of pain on your face was fucking scary. Nandini you are all I have and I can't lose you. I don't want to lose you ever" he rambles

"It's okay, you haven't lost me, I am right here"

"You said you didn't wanna be with me" it looked like he was in physical pain

"I am sorry, I am so sorry" I whisper holding him

He turns laying on my chest, his face hidden in the valley of my chest as tears run down his cheeks soaking my t shirt, his t shirt actually because I was wearing one of his loose old t shirts.

"I fucking almost lost you" he cries

"No, shh no you didn't. I am right here, I am promising you right now that it won't ever happen again. You won't lose me"

"your finger, it it was bleeding so much"

"It's okay breath, my finger is fine"

"It was bad and it wouldn't stop bleeding, the whole" he couldn't even say anything else

"Shhh I'm sorry, just breath. Relax" caressing his back I kept on mumbling how sorry I was.

"What if something happened to you?" He asks looking up in my eyes

His face covered with his tears and I hated that I was the reason behind his tears

"Nothing would happen to me, manik im okay silly" he shakes his head at me

"You didn't see, it was bleeding so bad, your finger turned white and and you weren't feeling anything"

"Manik, I promise you that it won't ever happen again, I didn't think straight when I said those words to you and I am so sorry that you had to see that but I promise never again"

"You can't hurt yourself like that, I I don't have anyone else"

"It won't happen again I promise" I whisepr kissing his hair

He nods holding me tight, I knew he was still thinking about losing me and I feel so guilty for making him feel that way.

"Mani it's okay, everything is better now" I tel him

"I ruined your t shirt" he says making me laugh

"It's your t shirt"

"Why wouldn't you tell me before, dang it" I giggle hearing him

He gets up and takes a few deep breaths, I sat up in front of him as well. Reaching up to his face I wipe his tears gently and press a soft kiss on his lips.

"I shouldn't have reacted like that, you are right, I should have talked to you and waited for you to be done with your meeting" I whisper caressing his hands that were in mine

"Nandini I told you she will do everything in her part to make you leave me and to create misunderstandings. I would've appreciated it more if you barged into my office and screamed at me but I understand. This time, I do understand why you didn't come up to me, I understand that the trauma, the thoughts came rushing back" I nod hearing him

"It wasn't that she affected me, I was just starting to wonder if you deserved someone as who had been abused like me, because you deserve so much Manik and"

"No, I deserve you and you are mine. I promise to heal every single scar and every single memory but darling, you have to let me in for me to do that"

"I know' I whisper

"Thank you for sharing everything with me" he mumbles kissing my head

"There is one more thing" I whisper

"Of course, what is it?" He asks

"I love you" a smile forms on his lips

"I love you so much more" he says kissing my head

he moves away from me grabbing some cream from his drawer

"Sit back love, I need to put this on your bruise. I wonder if I would need to baby proof our house" I smile hearing him

"What will you do? Cover corners?" I ask sitting back

"And not leave you alone even for a second becasue you are clumsy"

"That's not very nice boyfriend"

The widest smile forms on his lips making me smile just as wide

"You are trying to butter me up baby" I was hehhe

"Noooo, I am not. Ahh please mani it's still hurts" I pout

"This is why you tell me when you hurt yourself so I can heal you love. And just so you know, you are living with me now" he says

"Oh yeah? And what are we telling navy and cabir"

"That I love you and I am going to live with you forever. I'm sure they won't mind"

"So you will marry me?" I ask

"Yes, I can get a ring right now and have it officiated if you want?" He says like no big deal

"And witnesses?" I play along

"We will wake up hose two idiots"

"don't do that, it hurts" I mumble when he starts massaging my bruise gently

"It's to get the blood flowing love" he whispers

"I know but it hurts really bad" I whine

he stops and puts the cream away going to wash his hands as I lay down in his bed, I genuinely felt so light, no secrets, no hiding anything, he knows all of me