A broken smile

Understanding Each Other's Feelings

Recap:

My hands were full of school supplies and Ernesto gifts to me.

I didn't even get to the door and it opened, it was Ernesto.

He looked at me, his hands in his front pockets and he looked a little nervous.

What was he going to say? Or do?

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I decided to break the silence.

"Hey" I said

"Hey, we need to talk." he told me.

It was like he thought I didn't know that's what we were going to do.

I didn't say that, it was a little to rude.

" I know, let me put these roses in the water and my stuff in my room." I told him

" Ok I'll be waiting in the play room down stairs " he told me as he walked downstairs.

I went upstairs and did my settling things. This included a quick shower a little longer then this morning. I placed my homework on the desk and placed everything in its place so the room was neat.

Then I put on athlete shorts a.k.a basketball shorts. Then I went downstairs.

Now its time to talk. Lord give me strength so i won't break down or do/say anything embarrassing.

I walked inside the playroom and sat two couch cushions away from Ernesto.

"Done, now let's talk" I told him

"Ok imma get everything off my chest about you. Ready?" I nodded my head as a signal for him to continue.

"Ok so when I first came into class I thought you were different and beautiful" that made me blush a little.

" The way you carried yourself and took responsibility for yourself. You put yourself last because you wanted you sister to be happy. I'm sorry for misjudging you but it was an angry thought that I didn't mean that-"

I had to say this so I cut him off.

"When your angry the truth comes out. So please don't blame it on anger, you chose those words to come out and they did." I cut him off and said with an attitude.

"You right but I regret those words ever coming out and I want to do anything to make it up to you. I don't usually apologize but you deserve it. My feelings for you is only growing stronger everyday your around." he ended his speech.

Well his speech gave me chills because it was so sincere and truthful.

" I mean your attractive but I'm not ready to be in a committed relationship. I have Angel as my main priority and to finish school to provide for myself and her. I want to set an example for her so she won't have to struggle like I am. I am starting to like you but I have a baggage and I can't put it on you by coming into your life. You deserve a better girl than me." I told him, it broke my heart to tell him that but it was all the truth.

" I don't care what package you come with because I want you and all of those baggages. I can ease the pain I can help. I want to be here to show you what a man is like your father. I only want you, you only. I'm gonna wait as long as I can until I can completely have you. " he tired to persuade me.

I shook my head as tears started to roll. I feel so vulnerable.

" I can't I'm sorry, I'm sorry. " I told him as tears poured down faster than a water from the fountain.

I ran upstairs and locked the door. I slide down the door and wept.

I can't I just can't go through this again.

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Update!!

Sorry its short, I'll maybe update later.

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Lots of love,

♕ Queen Korah ♕