Deals with Daisy // LN4

88 ~ Big Changes

Daisy's POV

I eat the yoghurt slowly to give Lando five minutes extra after I hear the shower switch on before I dare to venture and follow him. It does occur to me that perhaps this is one of the times I should just leave him alone given he's clearly not in a good mood and we both know it. I appreciated he could at least remove himself from the situation before he made it worse. He hadn't slept long enough and seemed to be almost constantly having an internal debate ever since we got together about how much he was willing to show to the world. I knew a sane person would stay away.

However, I am not that.

I silently slip into the bathroom and watch him staring at the wall of the shower as the fog fills the room. I drop the little clothing I was wearing to the floor as I slink across the room, relying on him being too caught up in his thoughts to notice me and I'm in luck. He's off in his own world as I step into the shower behind him. My eyes scan over the tense muscles of his back, running all the way down to his clenched fists. He lets out a groan of frustration which I know shouldn't turn me on given the situation but I'm only human as I reach up to his shoulder just as he goes to run a hand through his hair. One of my hands travels slowly up his back while the other runs around his front to his stomach, trying to be careful not to startle him or make him stress further as I step in close to him. I seem to have some success as I watch his muscles slowly release as I do.

His head falls backwards as I step under the water with him, pressing a kiss to his spine as my hand on his stomach comes to rest over his heart, a silent signal that I'm here for him. It does the trick because he's quick to turn around and kiss me so fiercely that I find my ass pressed up against the glass, my control of the situation gone quickly. His fingers on my cheeks hold me in place for his passionate kiss, the water rippling down between our bodies as he presses himself against me. He was clearly trying to find a way to communicate the confusion in his head to me but when we came up for air - my head was empty and emptier still when his eyes looked at me through the water that was still dropping down between us from his hair.

"I'm sorry, I'm being a dick," he mumbles, moving so that I can stand under the water and I don't respond, just watch him as I wash myself. My hands are lightly massaging the shampoo into my scalp when he steps back under the water, hands dropping to my waist as he holds me close to him but not close enough for funny business. Just close enough for us to feel close. I realise as I watch him that he's busy reassuring himself that I'm there, having that moment of doubt that I'm all too familiar with. When none of it feels real and the only thing that can convince your brain that it's actually happening is to reach out and touch one another. I feel a little on show given that I'm naked but at the same time entirely comfortable as he leans forward and nudges my nose softly with his before he kisses me softly and steps away so I can wash my hair out. "I just... want us to be us. I want the rest of the world to disappear and not be able to interfere. The way we have been for the last few weeks - I don't want to go back to our normal lives."

"I do," I tell him simply, almost interrupting him because I can see that he had more to say but now it's his turn to wait as I wash the suds out of my hair and reach for the conditioner, enjoying the water that was so hot it was making my skin a little red. "I do want to go back to our normal lives because I love you and I love this... and I want it to be our normal life Lan. We're figuring it out and that's fine. I was hesitant to agree to go over to England anyway because of all the flying and hotel rooms messing with my head. I can probably argue my way out of it if we want, so I was just wanting to talk to you - because this is our life. We need to make it work to become normal - for the both of us," I remind him and I feel a slight smile come across my face with the initial words. That feeling is clearly shared by Lando as he kisses me once more, walking us out of the shower until we end up with towels around us and leaning against the countertop.