its my first time ranting in this book. of course its not going to be happy rant because well, i'm almost never happy now.
my dad is such an ass. he is always getting into arguements with my sister. i swear when she gets older she's gonna be a brat.
anyways on tuesday we were gonna go in the pool and my sister opened the backdoor.
My dad being the ass he is yelled at her for letting a fly in. All she did was let a fucking fly in. A FUCKING FLY.
i told him 'don't act like you've never let a fly in, its just a mistake. who knows if a fly is actually gonna walk into the house at the time that she opened the door.'
he was like 'how is it a mistake, you can't make a mistake by opening the door.'
blah blah blah. he's an ass. my half-sister invited him to go to some stupid car show somewhere. he said yes. my mom asked him a couple weeks ago if he wanted to go to that exact place for fathers day. he said no, that it was stupid.
but yet he'll do other things for his stupid daughters. like today he went to the bank and spent my mom's money on one of them. its my mom's fucking money. she should be the one to spend it not him.
yes he is my biological dad. i think...i did find this picture of me, my mom and some other man that i know was definitely not my dad. grey hair and shit. i was like probably 2. i actually do know the name of the man. its Xavier. I actually do remember meeting him at Wendy's every other Sunday. My mom would never go in. She'd make me go in by myself and then she'd go shopping. I honestly don't know how I remember this.
but i swear its real. Then one day my cousin (who's 2 years older than me), my grandma and I were in the car and he said 'hey ash do you remember your father?'
and my grandma was like 'nick shut up she doesn't know.'
obviously since he's 2 years older than me he must've met him somehow. i don't know why i haven't asked him about my 'father'.
its probably something i shouldn't know about though. I did look at ny birth certificate a year ago. it clearly says my dad's name (the one who lives with us now). but who knows my mom could have paied someone to change it because along time ago when I was in kindergarten, my last name had been Rodriguez.
my mom told me that that made a mistake on my last name. I remember going to some place to get a re-printed birth certificate. my last name had officially been changed. my last name had changed 3 times. it went from Rodriguez, to Hall (my grandma's last name) to Gomez.
but i seriously think that my mom is lying to me and that my 'dad' is not my real dad. i just don't get my she won't tell me the truth.
my whole life will be a lie if she doesn't ever tell me.
-ash xox
ps. i have a joke for you guys.
what do you call the security guards that work outside of the Samsung shops?
Guardians of the Galaxy.
you get it? 😂 stupid i know.
