Hey guys it's Ashley...I haven't been on here in forever but I really need to rant right now because I'm like really sad.
This all started on July 9th, my friend invited me to go go karting at first for her birthday. But then the day before they canceled and decided to laser tag. I can't do laser tag because of my asthma so I told her no. She replied telling me 'k' and didn't talk to me. Then her mom told my mom that we could go swimming at her house but didn't give my mom a time to come over. We figured they were still going to laser tag.
I had gotten my second earring that day and I reading the bottle of cleaning solution they gave me it clearly stated that I could not go swimming for 24 hours. So my friend texted me asking if I was still coming over. My mom told me not to respond just yet and make it look like I had been busy.
I responded maybe 3 hours later (this is really mean of me but they kept changing plans on me) I lied to her and told her that we had to take my grandma to the airport to go to Mexico. We were supposed to take her the weekend after that.
She said oh. I felt bad but there was nothing I could do. I also made the stupid mistake of not telling her happy birthday. I swear I'm a dumbass, I usually never forget. But we're all human right, no ones perfect, we all make mistakes. But no she got mad I told her I was sorry and I kept apologizing and again she told me it's ok.
So I felt bad so I went to go buy her a gift, I spent $30 of my own money on her. She wasn't home so I left the gift by the front door. I texted telling her that I got her a gift and told her where I left it. Guess what she tells me "okay"
What the fuck? What does okay mean like come on. No other friend of ours would force their mom to take them to the store and then drop the gift off at the house.
So then a few days passed. I told my mom that my friend wasn't talking to me, she told the mom which is what I didn't want her to do. I wanted to handle it myself but I wanted just to vent to my mom, you know?
The mom said she'd talk to my friend. She never did. So then I tried to invite her over to swim this week. She flat out told me no. At least I tried and since then I haven't made any other effort to contact her. I don't feel comfortable with her anymore at this point. I basically haven't talked to her in three weeks.
I know that when we go back to school, she's going to be all over me like nothing even happened.
Here's another story, my parents keep fighting over every little thing. I try to stick up for my mom a lot of the time and I always have to have the last word. That's because I'm a stubborn little bitch. I see my parents getting a divorce by at least next year. I've been sadly dragged into the mess because I open my big fat mouth and fight.
Like just last weekend my dad said something about my mom 'fat ass' and 'your mom should look into go on a diet' he started talking about how I was fat too. I literally went off on him and got so mad. It's one thing to talk about me but when you talk about my mom you basically just crossed the line.
My mom gets very insecure about her 'fat ass' as my dad said and she's also very insecure about her body. I definitely think that she gets hurt whenever he says something like that.
My dad is such an asshole. He literally hates me now because I always am yelling at him. But when my older half sister yells, it's okay. He allows it. She had such a bad attitude and wouldn't stop yelling and he told my mom that she did nothing wrong. But if I did what she did on Saturday, he'd murder me.
My family is a huge mess at this point...and as for my friend, I'm done with her. Then watch, she'll come to me when she needs something or needs a friend.
-Ashley
