its ashley. sorry for any grammar mistakes. my brain litterally can't function today.
i have this fever and i feel like im dying. my mom also told me that i look like shit. thanks mom but i'm sick. i can hardly walk and i feel really dizzy yet she keeps asking me to do things for her.
i got some news on Saturday that my mom is getting on a plane for a work trip. She's going to Stockten, CA. That's were shooting are and its not a good place. plus i have a class for school that day, she's known for 3 months about this class. idk how the hell i'm gonna get there. idk why she'd agree.
i feel like im in one of those fanfics were the parent is on a trip.
and also my wrist hurts like hell so i probably need to get it x-rayed. clumsy ashley.
here's another thing, my mom is always on her phone, sunshine to darkness. it seems as if she doesn't have time for me. she wonders why i don't tell her anything. that's cause she never listens, its like she blocks out the noises around her.
she can't even take care of her sick children, she's too busy with work. i'm the one that gives myself the pills. my mom's life litterally revolves around work.
like last night, it was her bosses wedding, i had a really bad fever. guess what she did, she left me home alone and told me there was medience in the cabnet. that's the kind of things that make me cry. yet she took my sister to the doctor and won't take me. dies she figure that since i'm a teenager and im not 7 that i can pretty much fight it off. my body isn't strong im weak.
i fall asleep crying at night because i have no one who listens to what i say. (except for jade, thanks jade ily.)
ily guys.
-ash
