Hey guys.
Long time no see.
I'm facing yet another problem when it comes to friends in high school.
I don't remember if I ever ranted about this last year (knowing me, I probably did), but I'm starting to feel like I'm the "back-up friend" all over again. I'm still friends with one girl from my old school, and I've made a bunch of new friends since the beginning of the year, but I keep facing this problem where basically they only text me or talk to me when they're bored or when they're upset with one of my other friends.
It's really frustrating.
Some of them started talking about this triple-blind-date thing they were going to do at the end of the month in our little group chat earlier today, and even though I don't really want to be forced into a blind date (or any date, for that matter), it kind of made me feel sad that they were talking about this right in front of me like it didn't matter that I wasn't going. At one point, my friend from my old school suggested I go too, and sort of jokingly I was like NO NO NO but at the same time I was thinking 'at least I'd actually be able to hang out with my friends outside of school for once'.
I'm not doing it, since another one of my friends said I didn't have to, which, again, I'm down with, but I'm starting to feel like my social life is really diminishing. I tend to feel like this a lot during the winter for whatever reason. Maybe it's just being stuck at home because of snow and realizing your friends are out having fun without you because of their snapchat stories.
Anyway, those three friends ended up having a fight in the group chat and my friend from my old school ended up leaving it. I'm kind of struggling because she came to me asking what she should do and I just gave her a bullshit answer like I knew what I was saying.
Basically the only good thing to come out of this weekend is that I somehow managed to see Hamilton on Broadway (dream come true) and that my friend agreed to be in a band called "Flirting with Plagiarism" with me.
Okay I'm going to go before I decide to make another way-to-long rant that no one is going to comment on.
-Cat
