Hey it's Cat
I still haven't told that girl who's kind of stalking me to fuck off even though I know I should 😁
That isn't what this is about though.
I think I have a crush on this girl I'm friends with.
There are multiple reasons it wouldn't work though:
1) I don't think she likes girls
2) She's a really good friend of mine
3) She has a crush on my brother
She straight-up told me that last thing, too.
I SOUND LIKE A FUCKING MOVIE CLICHE AND I HATE IT
She's just really funny and nice and she reads one of my books and loves it and she's into all the bands I'm into (and I'm getting her to like 5SOS even though she claims to hate them) and it sucks because I really like her but I don't want to say anything, not am I planning to anytime soon because I don't want to get friend-zoned, plus I haven't actually come out to my parents yet about being bi.
So this is just fabulous.
I'm just so tired of keeping this in and tbh I'm thinking about potentially coming out to some more of my friends tomorrow because one of them is having a sleepover for New Years and her birthday. On the other hand, I'm worried they'll think I'm a freak, even though pretty much all of them have said they don't care if someone is gay.
Obviously being bi isn't the same, but I kind of have a preference for girls so...
I'm just struggling to figure this out right now and I don't know how I'm supposed to. I want to be done with this fucking secret and I can't be because fucking society and homophobics and shit and UGH
Help meeeeeeee
-Cat
