" Move on "
There are two things that you do not fight for in this life because they only come naturally.
True love and true friends.
I didn't have the latter so I try my best to at least have the first one. But I realize, I should have not tried harder knowing it must come naturally. .and it didn't. So I decided to never cross the line again.
At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone who does not do anything in return but just hurt you.
My desperation in all of this must come to an end.
Maybe .. as what they always tell me.. it's now time for me to stop.
I should stop even if this curse feelings I have for him is still here. I should stop even if I am dying deep inside to be desperate again.
But my pride is telling me that one last pathetic move, I will surely lost my self respect in this forever.
Kaya hangga't kaya ko pang gawin, gagawin ko na. Ayokong umabot sa point na maging 'yun mawala sa'kin.
My mother is one hell right again when she told me when to fight for someone and when to let go.
Kung nasasakripisyo na nito ang respeto mo sa sarili, staying is not the answer anymore.
There was this thin line between staying and walking away from someone, and that is knowing your boundaries.
If it's not giving you peace of mind and happiness and it's all hurting and degrading. . then it's not worth it anymore.
Normalize making decisions that will break your heart, but will give you peace of mind.
The process is very hard, but as days go by. .I'm proud for the little things that I've overcome..for the courage of walking away from him.
" Kumusta Harriet? Sobrang tagal na 'nung huli tayo magkita." Tumabi sa'kin si kuya Pabby. Nasa tabi kami ng malaking mangga dito malapit sa batis.
Hindi na ako muling pumunta run sa favorite spot ni Sevi. As much as possible, avoiding those things that relates to him is the first step to stop.
Kahit hindi gaanong kaganda ang view dito pero naaapreciate ko naman ang katahimikan ng lugar.
Mas nagkakaron ako ng time mag-isip at libangin ang sarili sa mga bagay na gusto kong gawin.
Narealize ko, hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon nasa tao nakadepende yung saya mo. Minsan..nasa mga bagay na gusto mong gawin noon pa man.
Lately, binalik ko yung hilig ko sa pagdrawing. Kahit hindi gaanong kagaling pero nakakatulong ito para maibsan yung sakit.
" I'm trying to be okay here, kuya." Tahimik lang akong nakatanaw sa batis. Pinakikinggan ang agos nito.
" I'm glad mukhang natauhan ka na 'rin. . sa wakas."
I did not react nor comment from what he said.
Kuya Pabby is the first person who always remind me that what I wanted in this life is really impossible.
" Hindi madali kuya...pero tinatry ko talaga ang best."
Tumikhim siya saka mahina akong tinapik sa balikat. That tap is his way of telling me that no matter how hard, but I still did a great job.
" Mabuti kung ganun Harriet. .kasi masasaktan ka lang talaga kung ipipilit mo pa."
Napayuko ako at napabuntong hininga.
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