MERCENARY 3: Descent into Madness |BTS JIMIN FF|

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*beep*

*beep*

*beep*

What the fuck is that sound? It's piercing into my brain. 

And this smell... it's alcohol. It's making my nose burn.

'... kill us.'

'what... supposed...'

I can hear commotion and voices, but they're melting together. It feels as though my ears are covered and I'm shoved into a tunnel and closed in.

*beep*

*beep*

'And Yoongi?'

I recognized Hoseok's voice as my head started clearing. I also recognize the beeping sound. It's the heart monitor.

Am I in the hospital?

No. I am dead. I'm supposed to be dead.

'Uhh- guys. I think he's waking up.'

Multiple steps came closer to me at the sounds of what I can recognize as Jin's voice, going fully silent for a moment before Namjoon spoke.

'J? Can you hear us?'

My eyes feel heavy, and it's a struggle to open them. I opened them just enough to get blinded by the strong lighting on the ceiling above me and closed them right back. I feel like I got flashbanged and an instant headache settled in my head.

'Where-where am I?' My voice came out as a dry, hoarse croak as I kept trying to open my eyes

'You're in the hospital. Just breathe. Take a minute.' Namjoon's voice was way too caring and I didn't like it

After trying what felt like a thousand times, I squint-opened my eyes, letting myself adjust to the brightness slowly. And after another minute or so of my eyes desperately fighting to close, I managed to keep them open just enough to look around.

Jin was sitting on my left side, and Hoseok and Namjoon were standing on my right, looking down at me.

I tried to move, wanting to sit up, but Jin quickly put his hand on my shoulder, holding me down. 'Don't move. Take it easy.'

I looked down at where his hand is and noticed that most of my chest was bandaged and taped up.

'What happened?' I mutter, and as soon as those three started looking at each other in a way that I can reocognize as fear even in a state like this, every single memory slapped me

Rain.

She... She died. She died in my arms. I didn't save her. I couldn't save her. My Rain... she is gone.

I remember her eyes losing their shine. I remember her soundlessly mouthing words, only to spit out blood. I remember her weak breaths slowing down until she couldn't take another single one. I remember all the blood that poured out of her back as she slipped away from me, right in my arms.

Why am I here? I was supposed to die. I was supposed to die!

The pain. The grief. The suffering. The panic.

'Rain-She-She is-'

'J, lay back down!!' Namjoon helped Jin to push me back on the bed as I tried to get out of it, holding me down firmly as I called her name, trying to fight them off

'LET ME GO!' I heaved, pushing them off with all my strength. 'LET ME GO TO HER!!!'

'Jesus fuck, Jimin!!' Jin grunted at me, holding my thrashing body down