MERCENARY 3: Descent into Madness |BTS JIMIN FF|

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'You're leaving me.'

Plain and simple. She can't do it. She doesn't want me, doesn't love me anymore. She can't.

No. Not like this.

'Don't leave me! Rain, don't leave me, I'm begging you. I can't live without you.' I dropped down on my knees in full sobs, prepared to kiss her feet to keep her. 'I'm nothing without you, Rain. I'm begging you, don't abandon me. Don't leave me. Don't-'

I couldn't make any words, my throat tightest it's been in a while. Lungs pressing into themselves and the slow darkness edging my vision. I haven't had one in a long time. Not this, too.

I heard her voice but I couldn't figure out the words. It was ringing in my head as I fought for breath. I couldn't see a thing. It was all black before my eyes and I was hoping I'll just die here and now.

I felt her hand, her fingers on the sides of my face, yet I couldn't look up at her. I was suffocating.

'... me? Jimin!!!'

I heard a crack of her voice, trying to look at her, but unable to see her from the water in my eyes that kept pouring out.

'D-don't- I'm begging-' wheezing more, the words just wouldn't come out

'Breathe, baby. Breathe for me.' Her hands pulled me on her chest and I wrapped myself around her, letting her hold me

'I'm not leaving you. Breathe, baby. Please, breathe.' She pleaded

Baby? She... she called me baby!

Taking in deep, wheezing breaths, I was trying to at last clear my vision a bit. Just to see her.

'There you go. Just keep going. I'm right here. I promise.'

Like those old days where I've suffered from the brain meddling, she held me like a child, cradling me and running her fingers through my hair, trying to calm me down.

'I love you. I love you so much.'

I heard her voice break as she held me, and if I could lose more breath, I would. But I had none, so I simply stopped breathing altogether.

She said it. After all this time, after all the pain and torture, the words I've been dying to hear.

Maybe it was the forced stop, but it helped with the wheezing and suffocating, and my vision was back. I could see.

I pulled away from her chest, looking at her face where she was now kneeling next to me.

'I love you, Jimin. I always have. I always will.' She cried with me, her trembling fingers caressing my face. 'I'm not leaving you. Not in a million years.'

'The ring-'

'I gave it to you so you could put it back on my finger.' She smiled at me, holding my face firmly in her hands, her thumbs wiping the tears under my eyes. 'I'm still not okay. But I want to be not okay with you by my side.'

'I have a lot of fears and worries, and I can't work through them. Not on my own. But I could work through anything with you.'

'Rain... please tell me this is real. Tell me I'm not just making this all up in my mind. I can't... I can't handle any more. I can't-'

'It is real. I'm real. You are real. We are real.' She smiled and it felt as if though the sun had finally come through the clouds which were unmoving and relentless

Real or not, it does not matter. As long as I get to have her back. My heart. My soul. My Rain.

My arms were around her waist in the blink of an eye, and even faster than that, she was fastened around my hips. Melting into my arms, I held her tighter as if she was going to slip away, pour away like a river, and she held me just as tightly.