MERCENARY 3: Descent into Madness |BTS JIMIN FF|

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'Please, please, I'm begging you baby, don't go. Don't leave me alone. We haven't had any time.'

I'm watching her life fading away as she closes her eyes. I feel her blood draining down my hands and I can't stop it.

'No... Rain. Open your eyes. Come on, baby. Open your eyes. Look at me... Please look at me...'

I'm shaking her, crying out her name and begging her to look at me. To tell me it's just a joke.

'We haven't had any time. I need more time. I want more time with you... We haven't had any time...'

'COME BACK!!!'

I screamed and screamed, trying to pull her image back at it's disappearing from my arms and fading away like she's falling through.

The only thing left behind is blood. So much blood. On my hands. On my arms. On the floor.

'What's wrong, baby?' A cute giggle made me stop screaming, and I looked up to see my angel

'Rain.'

I called her name, struggling to get up like there is a whole planet on my shoulders, keeping me down.

'Rain... come to me, please.'

She smiled like she used to, her eyes lightening up with the happiness. She doesn't look tortured. She's beautiful and healthy.

I keep trying to move, but my body is cemented to the ground.

'I can't get to you. Please, baby, please come to me.' I claw at the ground

Screaming and punching the ground repeatedly is not working. I keep trying to move, but all I see are roots growing from the ground and wrapping themselves around my ankles and rapidly going upwards, capturing my body bit by bit.

'You look like you need some help.' She giggled again and when I looked at her, she was all bloody and tired, like when she died in my arms

Her wrists seem like they've been tied with something heavy for too long. Her feet are bleeding. And her lips are moving but the blood is coming out instead of words.

'NO! RAIN!!!' I threw myself towards her, but these roots held me back, now strangling me as they reached my neck and tighten around it and my chest, constricting my breathing.

'I can't... I can't... Please come back... It hurts...' Sobbing at her distant image, chocking on my words and tears

'I can't ever come back. You didn't save me.'

I opened my eyes, wheezing out of my mind. I managed to sit up, not seeing a thing in front of me from all the blackness clouding my sight, and tapped my chest until I found her ring.

I love you. I love you. I love you...

Instead of counting some idiotic numbers, I kept thinking the same words over and over until I could talk.

'You didn't save me.' I repeat her words from my dream, breaking down all over again

I know it's my own guilt. I know this is not what she would ever say to me, and I know because I would never say it to her either. But I also know that it's the truth. I know that I didn't save her. I know it's my fault.

I managed to calm myself down a little, sitting upright by the headboard and leaning my head on the wall, still tightly holding onto her ring.

Wondering what time it is, I knocked over the lamp in the darkness to find my phone, only to see that it's 3:37 in the morning. Last time I looked at it was 2:20, and then it took me another 20 mnutes to actually fall asleep after I tired myself out crying. I suppose 45 minutes is better than nothing, but I can't go back to sleep now.