MERCENARY 3: Descent into Madness |BTS JIMIN FF|

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Thought I'd build my way up, so I started with his feet. I lodged a knife under his toenail, making sure to cut out a piece of flesh as I ripped the nail off, making him growl loudly in pain and toss about like fish on dry land. He's got no footing, yet he's trying.

I know he wants nothing more than to kick me in the face, but he can't lift his leg. In celebration of that, I stabbed under the next nail, ripping it off only halfway, just to go in again and pull it aggressively, making him shudder and huff in pain.

The sound of chains rattling and his huffing and cursing filled the little room in no time, but that means nothing. I'm not even warming up yet.

I went on to tear off all 10 nails off his toes, leaving his feet bleeding a lot more than it should happen. Good.

I calmly collected his nails in my hand, all bloody and disgusting, and picked them up.
'You must be hungry. Open wide.'

He kept his mouth firmly shut, pulling his head away as if he could run away from me.

I grabbed his face roughly, squeezing his jaw until it unlocked, and he couldn't fight me off. Just a tiny gap, but it's more than enough.

I pried his mouth open and tilted his head back, shoving his cut-off nails in his mouth and closing his jaw so he couldn't spit them out.

He was tossing himself about, fighting to open his mouth, and tears pooled in his eyes because he was close to throwing up.

'Throw up, and I'll collect it in the bag and feed it to you. Swallow them now, and I won't shove them up your ass.'

He started gagging, and I only closed my hand over his lips.
'You're gonna eat your own vomit like a dog.'

And sure enough, he started convulsing, fighting to get it all out, but having his lips closed up and unable to open them up, his vomit went through his nose and ran down his face, while he had to swallow most of it back down, along with the nails that he started choking on. It was one of the most disgusting things I've ever seen. His eyes went red, and he was threatening to throw up again, and I do not care. I'll stay here 24/7 to hold him. He's eating it.

I held him for good 15 minutes until he stopped shaking and gagging, just to make sure he won't get it out. I had his vomit on my hands, and honestly, it was more disgusting than holding Isui's heart. Just abysmally smelly and gross.

'There. God dog.' I pat his head, wiping his vomit on his hair in the process

'I'm gonna fucking kill you.' He threatened, no more joking behind his voice

'Don't tell me you're thirsty, I'll gladly piss down your throat.'

No answer. Just a glare that tells me he wants to rip me apart.

'You made a mess. Let me help you clean up.'

I grabbed a hose from the side, turning on a cold blast and spraying him head to toe in freezing water, and listening to him gurgle under the blast I pointed to his face. He had nowhere to go but stand and take it, shuddering in the cold.

Once I turned the water off, he looked like the girl from the ring movie, plus the dick. If this is what you could call a dick. His hair was soaked and draining down the sides of his face as he breathed out deeply, catching his breath. Shuddering and muttering under his breath as he hung there was a sight to behold.

'Shall we move on?'

'F-fuck y- you-' He stuttered through clacking teeth

'Still hungry? No worries. I'll give you some meat this time.'

I crouched down and cut off his pinky toe, his screaming filling the room. Blood poured out of the flesh in waves, mixing with water underneath him.

'I always loved symmetry.' I mock as I cut off his other pinky toe, hearing his screams go up in volume

'Shhhh. You've got 8 more. We'll leave those for tomorrow.'

'I'm- I'm gonna- gonna kill y-you!' He hissed angrily

'Good luck. Now open up. You had a starter. The main course is here.' I put his toes in front of his face, and he backed away like earlier

I sighed deeply, 'You tried this. It's easier if you go along. For us both. Here. I'll even clean it for you.'

I cut open the toes in my hand, picking out the bones from the meat and throwing them away. Little to nothing disgusts me anymore. This sure doesn't.

'Open up, dog.'

Another fight later, I shoved his toes in his mouth, but this time, I taped his lips shut, not allowing him to spit a thing out.

'I will be back later. If you don't eat those by the time I'm back, I'll feed you more of yourself.'

I heard him gagging again as I left the room, slamming the metal door behind myself. He's gonna throw up and eat it again because there's nowhere to go, and I'm not wasting my time with it. When I actually start with him, he's gonna beg to be fed toes.

By the time I came back up, I realized it was nearly 7 in the morning. And I only realised because the guys were sitting and having breakfast. And Yoongi was there.

'Are you just now coming up??' Hoseok asks, his eyes wide in shock

Why ask something so obvious?

'Can I have a turn? I just need to poke a hole in his leg.' Jungkook asks

Considering I'm in a better mood than I've been in the last 3 months, I willed myself to answer.

'I don't care, but whatever you do, don't take that tape off his lips.'

Acting like they're not surprised that I answered, Jin cleared his throat and asked a question that he should not have asked.

'Why?'

'I tore off his nails and cut off his toes then fed them to him. Then I sealed his lips so he ate his own vomit. I don't want it coming back out.'

Instant regret settled around the table, and every single one of them dropped their food, throwing away their utensils, cursing out of disgust.

'This one's on me. I never should have asked.' Jin took the blame, grimacing more than any of them, earning all of them to throw a napkin at him

'I suggest staying away if you can't handle this much. I've only begun.'

'Did he say anything?' Yoongi asked in his broken voice, and only then I looked at him properly. He's an absolute mess. He should be in bed. Not moving. For a long time.

'No. But I don't need him to. I found him. I'll find her, too.'

There was no point going to sleep, and I thought about a shower, but I needed to go out for my run first. So I washed the blood and vomit, changed, and took Hella with me.

I ran for almost 2 hours, depleting my strength, just to make myself hungry enough to eat. I did lose my appetite with the canibalism I forced on him. Maybe it was slightly disgusting, but nothing close to what's to come.

Shoving the food down my throat gave me some strength, but not as much as I hoped for. I still felt exhausted. Just enough to feel it. Enough to be bothered. Only when I tried to think about why I'm so tired, I realized that I haven't slept in nearly 3 days. 

Since the night I got Yoongi, I haven't even gotten to the bed. I can practically hear Hoseok's voice in my head, scolding me with pure disappointment about my sleeping habits which got worse than they ever were before. I sleep just enough for my organs not to shut down. Or I did. Now I might actually shut down. 

Well, it doesn't matter anyway. I'll be dead and gone soon enough either way. No point wasting time on sleep when I can use it better.

I wanted to go straight down to him, but then I thought, no. I'm gonna let him simmer slowly. Eat himself out of nerver and anticipation. Until then, I'll go and make myself stronger.