MERCENARY 3: Descent into Madness |BTS JIMIN FF|

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It's nearly 2 in the morning, and I've never been more awake in my life.

My eyes are wide open as I'm watching my reason for existence sitting across from me, eating the food I made.

She hasn't looked up once, going back to avoiding looking at me. And I haven't looked down once, avoiding looking away from her.

I've been chewing on the same piece of chicken for the last 3 minutes, mostly just holding the bite in my mouth as I'm frozen on her. I just can't help it. Once you think something is done and over with, you never expect to see it again, and I never expected to see this again. My wife. Alive. In front of me.

House was dead silent, and the only lights were the ones from above the kitchen stove.

She was starving and pretty much enhaled her food, while I was getting full just watching her eat.

'Here.' I slid my bowl to her side, and her eyes locked into mine

'You need to-'

'I ate more than enough.' I smile at her. 'Please. You need it way more than I do anyway.'

A small, shy smile, and she dove into my bowl, inhaling the food just as quickly as the first one.

'Want more?' I ask, sliding some juice towards her

'I ate more than I had in the last 3 weeks.' She made a comment which she meant as a joke, but then she realised what she said and her mood dropped instantly

It's almost as if I can see the horror flickering behind her eyes. Memories haunting her. And I need to pull her out of the living nightmare.

'Then prepare yourself for the morning. You know Jin is going to feed you until you explode.' I tried to distract her with a poor joke, and I'm not sure if it worked or if she was acting, but she smiled a little

'I might sleep in to skip that.'

'Then he'll bring it up to you.' That wasn't even a joke, and she knows it

'Mind protecting me from him?' She looks up, half smiling

Even this half smile of hers is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

'I'll do anything you want me to.'

The words slipped down my tongue with ease and conviction, and no doubt. I'll burn the world down for her.

RAIN POV

'I'll do anything you want me to.'

I know. I would be an idiot to ever think otherwise. I know the love he holds for me. I know there's no line he wouldn't cross for me. And I know the smile he keeps putting up is to make me feel better, but it's killing me instead because I know that he's hurting.

He is different. He's been hurting and suffering. I can see it clearly. We both have. Even more clearly, I can see the pain I'm inflicting by running from him.

'Rain, baby, can you please look at me?'

I was looking down again, trying to shove away every negative thought of him finding me disgusting, but when he calls me lovingly like this, my heart skips a beat like it's the first time I heard my name from his lips.

Looking up, he leaned a little over the table, but kept just far enough not to touch me. 'Talk to me. Tell me something. Anything.'

He was basically pleading with me, but I didn't even know where to start. I know I can tell him anything and everything, but how do I tell him about someone else all over me? How do I keep myself together when I know every word I speak will crush him down with anger and sorrow.