MERCENARY 3: Descent into Madness |BTS JIMIN FF|

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I sat in silence, looking out of the window and watching how everything passed us by. I watched the sun shining brightly in the middle of the sky, yet it felt to me like I was in the middle of the worst storm.

I kept playing with her ring, feeling myself falling deeper into seemingly endless pit of suffering. Knowing that she's not under the same sky with me made me want to jump out of this moving car and get run over by those behind us. But I can't. Not until I see where she is.

'... here. Jimin.'

I zoned out, looking at the ring on my hand without so much as blinking, that I didn't even notice that we had stopped.

'We're here.' Jin says

I jumped out of the car, wanting to run even though I have no idea where I'm running to. I'm so out of it that it took me a minute to even get where we were.

'Why are we at the house? I told you to-'

'It's this way.' Namjoon announced and started walking down a path that leads behind the house and into a garden that no one ever uses. I don't even know why we have it.

'We thought it would be best if they were home.' Jin added

'They?'

'We lost more than just Rain, J.'

I didn't even need to ask a thing because in less than a few seconds it was clear how much we lost. There were two tombstones placed a few feet apart with writing on them.

First one read

In loving memory of Min Yoongi.
A brother. A protector. Saviour.
You will never be forgotten.

Yoongi... I should feel something. I should cry for him. But I honestly barely even looked at his stone. Not when hers is right next to his.

In loving memory of Rain Park
A caring sister. A loving wife. An incredible woman.

Gone but never forgotten, our little spy.

'Rain...' I whispered her name, falling down on my knees by the stone, scraping my fingers on it like that's gonna bring her back.

Until this very moment, until I saw this grave with her name on it, I still had some slight hope that I've imagined it all. That the things I remember are the most horrible nightmare I've ever had. That she is still breathing. But seeing this all of that hope whitered away in an instant, bringing even more pain that I wasn't aware was possible to feel.

'Come back to me, baby. Please... I'm begging you... come back to me... I can't-'

At least this time, they didn't touch me. They let me cry, even moving away to give me some space.

I wish I could just dig through all this dirt, claw my way down to her, and crawl in next to her. I wish I could join her.

I don't know how long it's been that I've been sitting on the ground, but when Namjoon tapped me on the shoulder, I looked away from the stone to realize that the sun was going down.

I couldn't even bother to move. I cried out every drop of water in my body. I can barely see through my eyes because they feel heavy, and they hurt so badly that I can't even blink.

'We should go inside. You can't-'

'I'm not leaving her.'

Namjoon let out a deep exhale and crouched down next to me, talking to me in a voice that I know is full of care, but in this state, it makes me want to kill him.