Sunshine, Starlight | Aryan Simhadri

Part 10

I was sitting in my trailer on my own, I never was on my own while we were on set and I didn't have to be now because the others were hanging out and they invited me too but I declined saying that I need to practise my lines

I had been using the same excuse for like 3 days now so I either had to push the feelings away and stop reading hate comments and cry myself to sleep every night or find new excuses

I sat on my small couch just staring into the nothing

I noticed walkers suspicious looks every time I declined to hang out with them and every time I did hang out with them and I had been debating for a few days now wether to tell him or not, he's my twin after all he knows something is wrong already I feel like it would be nice to have my twins comfort for this but I also didn't want to pull him into this

Fuck it i thought as i grabbed my phone and entered the chat

Belly bel 👻

Walker
Come to my trailer rn

Walkie talkie 🗣️

What do you need beast

Before I could answer I heard a knock and then the door opened Walker coming in and just looking at me for a few seconds before sitting down next to me

"So you're finally gonna tell me what all this is about ?" He asks staring right at me, I break the eye contact and just shake my head slightly breathing out and fixating my eyes on a random point on the wall of my trailer

"I get hate already" I whisper just loud enough for him to hear "imagine how bad it's gonna be when the show comes out" I don't move my eyes still staring right at the same point "I feel like this was so wrong of me Walker, acting is your thing, the public, the people, the paparazzi, the cameras, I can't handle any of this" I felt my eyes watering slightly making my vision blurry "I regret this already and the worst part hasn't even begun" a single tear rolled down my cheek and I finally looked at Walker who had a pained expression on his face, he made sure I was done talking before speaking up

"You're such a piece of shit" this took me so by surprise that i let out a laugh making another tear fall out of my eye "who cares what they say Belle honestly fuck them, people talk they always do. You just have to deal with that" he frowned while saying this "I mean you know that I think you're terrible at anything and everything you do" he shrugged saying that but I knew what he was up to

"And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate" we both sung at the same time

"You're such an asshole man, I was sharing my feelings and you just bullied me" I say wiping away a tear

"Yeah that was really cringe that you cried"

"Oh shut up assface"

"You know we're twins right ?"

"Yeah but luckily fraternal so I have nothing to do with the way you look" I flick his head to which he makes a face

"I'm going back if you're done being a weirdo you can come if you want"  Walker got up and walked out looking at me before he closed the door "you're alright ?" I nodded with a smile

"Coming" it came out as barely a whisper but enough for him to smile and leave my trailer

I breathed out and got up, enough feeling sorry for myself, how often does someone get the chance to film their favourite childhood book series

I put on my folklore cardigan, which I had fought hard for when it got released, grabbed my phone and left my trailer heading towards the café I figured my friends would be

I sat down next to Leah and out my phone on the table

"Look who decided to join us again" the girl next to me joked making me role my eyes playfully at her

"I was busy"

"Oh yeah learning your lines right ?" Charlie also said, they knew damn well I had been lying

"Maybe I was, how do you know?"

"Cause you have no lines left Belle" I bit my lip and then bursted out laughing, I had forgotten about that, the others joined me laughing too

We just sat there and talked for a while, knowing that it was the last time for a while that we would all be together since Dior and Charlie had both finished filming almost a week ago and had to leave tonight

We went to the airport with them, hugging and saying our goodbyes

I hugged Dior while both of us were crying making us laugh at each other, the others joined into the hug too making us just stand there in a group hug for a minute

"We will hang out again, before the premier and all that" Dior said nodding

"Like once a month?" Charlie asked into the group

"Once a month." I agreed, once a month was way too little I knew that and all of us knew that but we would be lucky if we got to manage that

Charlie and Dior were flying with the same plane so they left together leaving us just standing there

"And then there were only 4" I said jokingly as we headed back to the car waiting for us and got in

"I'm leaving tomorrow" Aryan said looking around at us

"What? I thought you were staying for the wrap up" I spoke in disbelief

"I was supposed to" he nodded "but this thing came up and yeah. My flights at 5 PM tomorrow"

The rest of the car ride was quiet, none of us wanted to actually believe that 9 months were over so fast