Sunshine, Starlight | Aryan Simhadri

Part 123

"You didn't actually comment that"

"No I did." Aryan brushed a piece of hair behind my ear and smiled a little "it's pissing me off"

"Are you jealous ?"

"I'm not jealous. I know that there's nothing between you and Kenna, but seeing oh are they dating ? ; what does Belle say to that ? ; did Aryan and Belle break up ? underneath every single post with you two is starting to get really annoying. Like sorry I don't cage my boyfriend and let him have no female friends" Aryan kept his gaze on me and amused smile on his lips

"You know, you look really cute when you're annoyed" I rolled my eyes "no but I agree 100% it sucks"

"Yeah"

"You know I don't actually think you saying that Kenna and I are dating isn't gonna ease that" I laughed a little

"Yeah whatever, if they're gonna harass us I can at least have my fun with it"

"Totally" he placed his lips on mine, kissing me softly

"You looked really good in that music video" I felt him smile against my lips, he started tickling my stomach making me giggle and push his hands away

And lying there giggling in the arms of my boyfriend that insane guilt struck me again. Darcy would never have this experience, she would never even know what it is like falling asleep in her boyfriends arms

Aryan noticed the change in my mood immediately and stopped the tickling to just look at me

"What's up ?" I avoided his eyes and just shook my head slightly sighing "Belle"

"It's nothing. Don't worry about it" I got up and went into the bathroom of his hotel room, feeling his eyes follow my every step until the door was closed

I leaned my hands on the sink and looked in the mirror

A billion thoughts were running around my head again and they made me want to just cry, but I couldn't do that. I wouldn't do that. Aryan was worried enough I couldn't push my grieving onto him too

Maybe if I loved him just a little less I would break up with him. Or if I loved him a little more, if I cared enough I would not let him suffer because of me. I wouldn't let him suffer over and over again because I have some problems

I do care, I really really care. I don't want Aryan to suffer, maybe I should break up with him.

But if I do break up with him wouldn't that hurt him too ? I don't want to hurt Aryan. How could I get out of this without hurting him ?

The walls were slowly closing in, my own thoughts were suffocating me and a million questions with no answers were flying through my head when I heard a knock on the door

"Belle ? Are you okay ?" I looked into the mirror again and shook my head taking a big breath

"Yeah I'm fine." I waited a little and then heard his footsteps leave slowly, I wasn't going to hurt Aryan. I'll do whatever it takes for him not to get hurt.

I wiped a tear that had escaped from my eye away and stood up normally looking into the mirror one last time before flushing the toilet to make me look not suspicious even though he totally knew I was actually going to the bathroom

I laid back down on the bed and just wrapped my arms around him, cuddling as close to him as I could

He put his phone aside and wrapped his arms around me too

"Are you sure you're okay sunshine ? I'm here if you want or need anything"

"I'm good"

"You should get to sleep though, an interview that early is rough"

"I'll be fine."

"I like your ring" I smiled knowing exactly which one he meant without looking more to it humming in response

"It's really pretty right ?"

"Yeah. You should really sleep I'll stop annoyin you"

"I don't need sleep, I can sleep at home, right now all I need is enjoy every single second with you" he placed a kiss on the side of my head

  "Good night Belle, sweet dreams"

"Goodnight Aryan " I whispered back "I love you"

"I love you"

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"Is Charlie actually in Hawaii right now ?"

"He's just living his life"

I yawned widely, the first two interviews of the day were done, so like two more to go, which wasn't actually that bad

The interviews were really fun and an amazing distraction from every single one of my thoughts and spending time with my girls was actually the best thing to happen to me currently

I rested my head on Aryans shoulder again and yawned

"I don't need sleep" He repeated what I had said last night before I had fallen asleep immediately. I rolled my eyes at him and sat straight up but, but he pulled me towards himself again

"You're mocking me and then you won't even let me sit up"

"I'm not mocking you, I think that you're really cute"

Authors note:
Little filler chap again but I don't have any time to write 😪
Im also celebrating  my graduation kind of (it's our school system idk how to explain it ) and im going to a prom on Saturday 😭 so long weekend in front of me 👯‍♀️👯‍♀️

Anyways I hope you enjoyed reading this chapter loves 🫶🫶