"I'm hungry" I looked up from my phone to Walker who was sitting on my chair at my desk, I then looked at my clock
"It's almost 12"
"So ?" He shrugged "let's grab something from popeyes"
"I haven't been to popeyes in so long" I thought about that "but it is almost 12"
"Who cares ?" He got up and walked out of my room, I shrugged and got up as well, going downstairs and sitting on the stairs to put my shoes on
"Belle ? Walker ? Is that you ?"
"Yeah, we're going to get some food" I called back out into the living room
"What do you mean you're going to get food ? We have leftovers in the kitchen"
"But we don't want leftovers"
"Well that's too bad, you can't always get what you want" I rolled my eyes and looked up the stairs
"Come on mom please, we want to spend some quality sibling time together"
"You can spend your quality time together in the day not at 12 am"
"Please mom, we've both had a shitty day" she leaned on the doorframe now and looked at me, Walker was still doing whatever upstairs "a really shitty day"
"What's going on honey ? I barely see you anymore, you're never home and when you are you're in your room or out and about the whole time. I miss my girl" there was that feeling again, like feeling my heart clenching, let's add shitty daughter to the list
"I'm sorry"
"Don't be sorry, I love that you get to spend your teenage years so fulfilled, but please don't forget your family"
"I would never" I got up and hugged mom tightly
"And if something bothers you, you don't hesitate to come to me okay ? I want to know all about your life, good and bad"
"I love you mommy"
"I love you to belly" we let go of the hug and she held my face in her hands placing a kiss on my forehead "don't stay out too late alright ?"
"No promise ?" She gave me a look and I smiled "we won't, if your son would find his way downstairs today"
"When you're back I want to hear a bit about Aryan alright ? Or rather in the morning. I haven't seen him in ages" I felt my face light up at the mention of my boyfriend
"Of course" Walker came downstairs and threw a hoodie towards me
"I'm not gonna deal with you getting sick weirdo" I rolled my eyes and pulled the hoodie over my t-shirt
"I really like you two looking out for each other like this" dad muttered from where he was standing behind mom now ruffling through my hair "I'm so proud of both of you"
"What is this ? Cheesy family meet up at the stairs ?" Walker frowned putting his shoes on and opening the door
"Do you need money" Walker and I both turned to dad and just looked at him "alright no need to rub in that you get more money than I do"
"Don't be too late"
I walked outside followed by Walker who closed the door behind him
"Leena didn't want to come, but she wants us to bring her food and tanners already asleep"
"Lazy Leena"
"Tired Tanner" I looked up into the night sky filled with many bright stars and my thoughts immediately flew to Aryan, I hadn't talked to him since before the hospital visit "is Aryan hanging out with McKenna again ?"
"Yeah"
"Did you see their TikTok's ?"
"No, show me" he took his phone out and went on TikTok showing me Aryans latest video first "these two will sometimes be the death of me" I laughed while he switched over to Mckennas account to show me hers as well "2017 much"
"Do you ever get jealous of them ?" I looked at Walker who first put his phone away before meeting my eyes
"What ?"
"Do you get jealous of them ? Of what they have ?" I thought for a second but just shook my head
"No, I don't think so, why ?"
"I don't know, they're so close and hang out so often and they just... I don't know it's stupid" we walked in silence for a little until I started talking
"You know, sometimes I do actually get jealous. Remember when they went to prom together ? No one besides Leah knows this cause it's actually really embarrassing but I full on accused Aryan of cheating on me"
"Huh ?"
"Yeah, not my best moment, just trauma I guess. But I think most of the time I don't get jealous about their relationship or anything like that but more that they just can hang out so often cause they live so close to each other, they can just drive a bit and see each other while I live on the opposite side of the country" I sighed shaking my head "long distance sucks, but that's beside the point. You know I've once been told that being jealous shows that you care. That it's normal, healthy even to get jealous when you really care about someone" Walker hummed in response "I get jealous of you too sometimes" I shrugged, I saw his head turn from the corner of my eye
"What do you mean ?"
"What ?"
"What do you mean you get jealous of me ?" I shrugged it off "Belleee"
"Oh don't flatter yourself"
"I'd never"
"I used to get really jealous when you did all that filming, it wasn't that bad either the Adam project but when you filmed the secret headquarters you spent so much time with mo and AJ and completely forgot about me"
"I didn't forget about you"
"Or when I was in Vancouver filming and I just got all these pictures with Leena Tanner and you and it just seemed so natural, it looked so right the three of you"
"Belle"
"This is so stupid, I just- I feel so, so-"I just shook my head and looked down at my feet
"What ?"
"It's weird, emotional and cheesy and depressing, forget about it" I laughed
"We've done so much cheesy depressing talk today Belle that won't change much"
"Just forget about it" we arrived at popeyes, ordered our food and ate there, talking about this and that a little
We then bought ice cream from some random store we walked by and sat at a bench
"I still want to know what you wanted to say earlier"
"Forget about it Walker"
"I'm not forgetting about it though, I'll just keep wondering until I die then" he said dramatically, I shook my head and ate a little of my ice cream
"I feel replaceable" I said eventually into the quiet night, Walker turned to me "I feel like the second someone who looks or acts more interesting than me walks by I'll get pushed aside, like I'm actually really unlovable and everyone's just playing a stupid prank on me. Like everything I touch somehow gets ruined. Like I really am just, really unlovable" I just looked straight ahead and a little upwards seeing the stars sparkling in the night sky. My eyes had filled with tears and I felt one fall from the corner of my eye
Authors note:
AHHHH WHATS WALKER GONNA SAY MAN ?!?!
GIRLY JUST TOLD HIM ALL OF THIS ?!
Anyways some family content cause why not 🤭
The twinies just trauma dumping the entire day to each other 🤪
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Sunshine, Starlight | Aryan Simhadri
FanficWhere Claribel Scobell can't help but fall for her Co-Star and very best Friend, but it's obviously not that easy... love never is "I love the stars, they remind me that there is still a little peace out there"-c.s. "I love the sun, it always shines...
