Sunshine, Starlight | Aryan Simhadri

Part 154

I looked through my friends, we were sitting on the floor playing monopoly and I had some extra time since I was stuck in prison

I felt so insanely at peace right where I was, after everything that happened in this year I was still sitting here watching Walker and Dior yell at each other about whatever it was they were arguing about now

I was sitting here on the floor past midnight with the very people I started my career with, after the release of two shows where I was one of the main characters, an EP, an entire album, during the time of filming season two of the show that started it all for me

That one audition tape from Walker where I wasn't even aware of being on had brought me so far

Life had tried so hard to kick my butt this year and it was almost successful with it, it might've been successful if I didn't have these people by my side for all of it

I felt a squeeze on my hand and looked up at Aryan

"You okay ?" I nodded smiling at him

"Yeah, I'm great" he smiled back at me nodding too before looking back at the game, I let my eyes wander back onto the board too

"Whose phone is that ?"

"Belle get your phone"

"Who would call me at 1 am ? Don't they have a life" I complained reaching for my phone that was lying on Charlie's bed behind me "oh it's Liv" I accepted the call and put it on speakerphone still a little confused about the calling so late "hey liv, what up"

"Who is liv ?" I heard Charlie whisper to Aryan a little confused

"Olivia, her music manager or whatever that's called" he whispered back quietly explaining it to Charlie

"Ohh"

"Belle ? Oh I'm so glad you're still awake you'll never believe what I just got"

"It's 1 am, all you should get is like into bed"

"Yeah, delayed sending or something I don't know why I received it this late but I couldn't wait till tomorrow to tell you" I frowned looking up at Walker who's eyes were also fixated on my screen

"What are you talking about ? What's going on ?"

"You're going on tour" I think I went into like some kind of shock mode or something because I didn't reply or move, I just sat there staring at my phone wide eyed for a moment

"What ?" I eventually said, it didn't come out louder than a whisper

"You're going on tour Belle, it's happening" she cheered through the phone

I looked up from my phone still a bit in shock looking around at the others who were all just waiting for me to have the first reaction

"I'm going on tour ?!" I repeated eventually the biggest smile growing on my face

Walker went in to hug me first, while I was still only focused on getting that into my head and not moving, it became a group hug soon enough with everyone squishing me in the middle

"I need to call dad and mom" I gasped standing up after the hug had broken apart "I'm going on tour" I didn't really know why I stood up in that moment, there wasn't really any thought in my head in that moment as I clicked on dads contact on my phone, not even that over there it was past 4 am

"Belle ? What is going on ?"

"Dad"

"Are you okay honey ? Did something happen ? Is Walker okay ?"

"Everyone is good dad"

"That's great, then what did I do to deserve a call at.... 4 in the morning ?" I heard mom mumbling something in the background too

"Olivia just called me and I'm going on tour dad can you believe it ?"

"What ?! That's amazing sweetie I'm so happy for you that's so exciting you've always wanted that" he sounded both so genuinely excited and so tired at the same time that I almost couldn't take him serious

"I know ! This is so amazing"

"Congrats Belle I knew you could do it" I also heard moms sleepy voice

"I'll call you back in the morning okay ? Good night"

I had performed songs in the living room in front of the tv and did performances since before I could even think, standing on the stage and singing songs that I wrote from my very own thoughts had always been a dream I never thought of being able to come true, but then again I also never thought I would ever be an actress and here I am.

I spent years convincing myself that I was romantically unlovable and would never find a guy who loved me for who i am and yet I was sitting here at only 15 years old with my boyfriend who loves me more than I could ever love myself, who shows me that love in the most incredible breathtaking ways each and every day again

A part of my heart was still empty and longing to have Darcy back but it was surrounded by so many pieces that were so full with love and memories that I could still live even with that missing piece

Life wasn't easy, but no one ever said that it would be. There were a whole lot of ups and downs and sometimes after a down there wasn't immediately an up, sometimes there was another down and then another and another, but sometimes in one of those downs there was someone waiting to pull you up brick by brick until you were way up there where you might actually love all of it

Authors note:
I'm crying.
It's done everyone.

I've just been delaying the end by adding random things because I was quite honestly REALLY not ready for this to end
I have grown incredibly emotionally attached to my dear Belle who has a few of my flaws that I personally can't overcome and I feel like will always attack me even if they're only in my mind so writing these chapters where people love her for who she is was really comforting for me and they made me learn a thing or two too
Writing down some of my flaws in another person made me realise that maybe they aren't as horrible as my brain convinced me they were and seeing everyone who reads the fanfic love Belle is something I will cherish really deep in my heart, seeing that people read and are interested in my words and like what I have brought down into this story is incredible
I'm so thankful for every single reader, voter and of course my favourites, the ones who comment their thoughts and ideas and who let me know they like my writing through the amazing comments I get to read through 🫶
While the end of sunshine, starlight is in no way a goodbye it's still the end of a huge chapter for me, this is the very first book that I'm finishing without feeling really really bad about what I wrote down on these chapters and after almost half a year of writing this day and night it's hard to believe that this was the last....

Because it's not 😋
This is the end, I don't want to make any false hopes or anything but since the Walker fanfic will be set in the same timeline and universe a thing or two will for sure get mentioned over there, so when I feel like we hit something big or important over there I might write another chapter here
Also if I just feel the need to have some sweet Claryan content I might randomly drop another chapter once in a while 😊

Well... endings are always a little bittersweet aren't they ?

Lyrics of the day :
When you're young, you just
run
But you come back to what you need

Oh and by the way the introduction chapter for the Walker fanfic also just got posted 😆