Sunshine, Starlight | Aryan Simhadri

Part 145

"I have a girlfriend" I just looked at her a little dumbfounded

"Huh ?"

"I have a girlfriend" I blinked a few times again processing her words

"Like- like dating ? What about Aryan ?"

"Yes, like dating. Aryan and I aren't... really dating" I felt so many things at the same time in that moment, happy, relieved, sad, excited, hurt, betrayed and so on. I didn't even know what to say anymore "I know that Aryan and you were a thing not too long ago so I first thought you wouldn't even know because this wasn't supposed to be a big deal but then Aryan said you found my instagram and like I knew from that moment that it wouldn't be great but I also thought that I mean since you two broke up maybe it wouldn't be too bad, which is stupid-" I was barely following her which she seemed to notice since she stopped and looked at me with a sad expression "I'm sorry"

"No, it's- it's fine" I pushed a little smile on to reassure her "I'm fine" I nodded again "I uh- wow" I moved my eyes to the floor

"Yesterday I saw that this was actually hurting you and that was never my intention"

"No really it's alright, I mean we're broken up it's not really any of my business" I looked back up at her laughing slightly "But I really think I should wash this off of me, I'll see you later alright ?"

"Yeah, see you" I got up and walked up to my trailer feeling the strangest feeling in my stomach

"Are you alright" I heard Walker laughing when he saw me passing by

"Yeah, great" I got into my trailer and grabbed a towel going into my bathroom and locking the door

I let the water run over me while I was still deep in thought, Aryan had been my best friend before we started dating and of course things are different now and I don't expect him to come running to tell me everything but I feel like this is something pretty big that he could've told me. Did he want me to think they were really dating ? Why did it have to be his fake girlfriend telling me that they're not actually dating and not him ? I thought that we were at least close enough for him to tell me something like that, we were friends again after all, or so I thought

I spent about an hour in the shower, washing the blood off, which was a whole lot of work, and thinking one too many thoughts

I wrapped the towel around me and walked out of the bathroom while pulling my hair into a bun

"Oh- uh- I just wanted to let you know that we're driving back to the hotel soon"

"Okay, thanks" I watched Aryan turn around and leave closing the door behind himself

I walked up to the door and locked it leaning against it for a second before I pushed myself up to choose some clothes to put on

I put on a short white skirt and a hoodie on top of it, pulling my hair out of the bun and put half of it up securing it with a claw clip

I sat on my couch and took my phone out looking through the messages, my eyes locking on one particular person

While Michael and I had decided to stay friends I don't think we had texted in ages and if we did it was mostly for school

Well that was strange whatever it was about, that whole conversation really had a weird vibe to it

I thought we had talked and set it on the table pretty clearly that I wasn't interested in him but those messages didn't feel like he got it or maybe he was thinking since Aryan and I broke up I would change my mind ? Well whatever it was all I knew was that I was still not interested in Michael

I also still didn't know how to handle the fact that Aryan and Amara were fake dating and that she as the one who told me about it, why couldn't it have been Aryan ?

I thought we had a moment on the roof at the hotel or in the rain when we bought ice and it had been killing me that I thought we had a moment while he had a girlfriend but all of it was so different suddenly

Maybe he just didn't like me anymore and was trying to avoid me because of that

The car ride back to the hotel was torture, I was sat between Aryan and Charlie which was bad enough on its own but while Charlie and Dior had a conversation I could feel Aryans eyes burning holes in the side of my head

Did he know that Amara told me ? Did he want her to tell me ? Was this what they were arguing about ?

I had about a million questions ringing in my head that were unanswered, but I felt like I also just wasn't ready for the answers

Authors note:
Well, let me just tell you be prepared for the next chapter 😋
This is more of a filler kind of
The next chap it tough though, I cried writing it 🤭

Anyways lyrics of the day :

I meant to tell you How I've hated how we left things when it fell through
'Cause you were everythin' to me, where did you run to?
Was it somethin' that I said that colored you blue?