Sunshine, Starlight | Aryan Simhadri

Part 138

"Yeah.. I've heard" I nodded opening my can and taking a sip out of it "she's really nice"

"You talked to her ?"

"Yeah, Aryan was on the phone with her the other day she seemed really kind" I nodded again

"That's nice, Aryan deserves someone kind" while it truly broke my heart I was glad that he was happy, maybe this is what true love actually is, letting the other person go

I looked at Walker and it looked like he was thinking about something really deeply, I didn't bother him though, I had enough to think about myself to-

"She's coming to Vancouver" my mind went blank and I just looked at Walker "she's coming to Vancouver tomorrow" I just took a second to process that taking a sip of my ice tea

"Oh"

"It's this volunteering thing from her school, she'll be here for a week, busy in the morning but free in the afternoons so she will probably be here sometimes"

"That's cool" that was so not cool. I didn't know what it was gonna be like, I had never been a person of much jealousy but I also knew that there already was a pinch in my heart every time she was mentioned so I didn't actually know what her being around here was gonna be like

"Is it though ?"

"Yeah"

"Do you have any scenes left today ?"

"No" I shook my head "but I have sword fighting practice with Dior later" he nodded staying quiet for a little before starting to talk again

"I knew you two dating was gonna end badly"

"Yeah well sorry I can't really choose who I fall for" I heard my tone switch to being really defensive suddenly

"What if you just stopped dating my friends"

"Oh please Aryan was more my friend than yours"

"That is so not true Aryan was my best friend"

"Well he still can be"

"No because ever since you broke up things have gotten so weird all the time. And Jason too, we had been so close for years before you started dating"

"Jason is a psychopath and a creep Walker you can't seriously push this on me"

"I'm not pushing it onto you. I'm just stating facts, I had never had a friend like Aryan and now everything is ruined because you had to date him"

"Oh well I'm sorry that my break up is such an inconvenience for you"

"When will you start seeing that all of this isn't just about you Belle ?! Obviously I know that it sucks for you but why are you refusing to see that this has affects on me too ?! When did you start being so selfish it's like I barely know you anymore" I bit my teeth pushing the tears down as I watched Walker storm out of my trailer

I took a few breaths to calm myself but it just ended with tears falling from eyes, everything was so much better before I started acting. Back when I was just lingering in Walkers shadow

I wanted to go back to when no one knew me and my mistakes went unnoticed and my every move wasn't analysed by the public, when it was just Val and I laughing about my silly mistakes because no one else cared for them

I took my phone out and typed a quick message to Dior

Diorr I think I'll skip out on the sword training today feeling a little under the weather I'll take a rest day 😪😔

Oh shit 💩 that's alright I wasn't feeling the sword today anyways, text me if you need anything 😆

She responded within seconds, so I walked up to my door and locked it quickly before lying down on the floor, I probably just needed a second to breath and this feeling would go away

When did you start being so selfish ?

I felt another wave of tears hit me thinking back to walkers words

It's like I barely know you anymore

These words would hurt coming from anyone, but hearing Walker say them had an extra kick to it, like I wasn't just stabbed by a knife but the knife was also on fire

I sat up from the floor and reached for a drawer pulling a small box out of it, I opened it and looked at the ring inside it

It was time for me to stop feeling sorry for myself all day every day and to start doing something.

I had broken up with Aryan because he deserved someone better and I couldn't spend all my days whining about missing him now that he had found someone, I didn't know what she was like quite yet but I would see that tomorrow and if Aryan was happy with her who am I to judge it ?

Darcy was dead. As much as that hurt there was no way of returning that, I couldn't bring her back and avoiding everything that was even the slightest bit about her wouldn't make me feel any better, I needed to face the truth at one point, read the letter she wrote to me, listen to her last voice message I hadn't had the chance to listen to and look through the things her mother said she wanted me to have. All that needed to be done at one point, maybe i would start rather slowly going through one thing at a time

I grabbed my phone and opened Darcy's chat, it had two unread messages, two voice messages she had left the day before she passed. I moved my finger to the play button but paused just letting my finger hover above it

I can't do this. You need to get your shit together

Authors note:
I wanted to post this yesterday but i fell asleep while writing the end and then my brain was just muddy the entire day 😪
Whoopsies Belle and Walker arguing ?! How did this happen ?  😔

I'd like to finish this chapter with some wise words from the one and only Gracie abrams that kept repeating itself in my brain lately and just fit the entire storyline right now :
I've been feeling sick, but I should help myself, not call you