Sunshine, Starlight | Aryan Simhadri

Part 133

2 AM

I had sat in my bed quietly to make sure both, Leah and Dior were sleeping before I quietly took my phone, put my slippers on and got out of my bed

I quietly crept to the door opening it and slowly closing it behind me

I let a breath out looking down the hallway, I was really glad that the light was shining so bright because otherwise it looked quite scary, it was actually really scary but there was no point in lying in my bed awake the whole night

I walked down the hall to the elevator pressing the button to call it, the doors opened and there was a man and a woman who were maybe in their early twenties inside of it, the woman shot me a smile before continuing her conversation so I just stepped inside and pressed the button to the highest floor

The couple got off just a few floors earlier leaving me alone and praying for no one to come into the elevator, I was actually quite paranoid at this point and I didn't know why I was doing this anymore

I got up on the top floor and took the last few steps up onto the roof where I was greeted by a cool breeze, I hadn't expected it to be this cold up here since it was end of July and mid summer

I walked up to the railing, leaning my arms on it and looking out into the beautiful city of Vancouver

I took my phone out and looked at the message Val had sent me yesterday, I didn't actually want to go back to best friends with her so i didn't really know what to do

I felt my blood freeze when I heard the door to the roof open from afar, was I about to get murdered ? I didn't dare to move just standing as still as I could in hopes that whoever just found their way onto the roof wouldn't notice me

I listened to the sound of the footsteps coming closer, holding my breath and closing my eyes hearing my heart beat basically out of my chest

"I'm standing with my statement that it's really scary here" I turned around and took a deep breath recognising that voice even in the darkness

"Fuck, you scared the shit out of me" I ran my fingers through my hair shaking my head

"I could've been a murderer you know" I stood silence watching him carefully "you shouldn't be up here on your own"

"You shouldn't either"

"I knew that I wouldn't be" I met his eyes and I almost couldn't bare the distance anymore

"I just needed a moment" I whisper into the quiet night sitting down and leaning my back against the railing, he nodded carefully stepping closer and sitting down beside me, leaving a little space open between us

We sat there in comfortable silence a bit as I watched the stars completely in my own thoughts

"Val came by my house" I didn't know where it came from but it just flew out of my mouth, I saw aryan turn his head to me from the corner of my eye "she was drunk" I laughed a little shaking my head

"Drunk ? Isn't she 15 ?"

"Yeah" I leaned my head back keeping my eyes on the sky "she kept on talking about how she didn't know all that about... about Jason, and uh- she kept apologising and.... And I don't know why I'm telling you this right now" I got really quiet towards the end feeling a little embarrassed at the fact that I was once again just out here venting to him

"Sunshine and Starlight first, right ?" He said quietly, he had said that exact same thing on our first date when I was randomly oversharing once again, I took a second just to look at him, he was sincere, so very sincere about wanting to hear more

Maybe I was dumping all my thoughts on him and maybe I was really oversharing but Aryan actually wanted to know all this. Maybe he was just actually interested in whatever was going on in my life at the moment

"I honestly don't know what I'm doing anymore" I somehow couldn't pull my eyes away from his, like there was a force so strong that it was physically impossible to look away "everything is going terrible and spinning out of my control and I can't stop it, I- I don't have control over anything anymore and it's so scary" I felt my eyes filling up with tears as I talked "I don't want Val back but she's in such a bad place I can't just completely drop her again and-"

"Belle" I stopped talking and just listened to him "it's not your job to always take care of everyone" a single tear fell from the corner of my eye and that made me pull my eyes away from Aryan, I wiped the tear away and shook my head

"I know" my voice broke at the word and I just shook my head slightly

"I don't think you do" I bit my inner cheek to prevent any more tears to fall "You deserve someone taking care of you too, but no one can do that if you don't let anyone in"

Authors note:
Much needed  Claryan quality time fr 😪
I don't actually have much more to say today so I hope you enjoyed the chap 🤭