*Alora Pov*
How I wished timing was on our side. How I wish we had met so much earlier, how I wish now it would have been you that I had laid my eyes on before....... him.
Would my heart had chosen you?
Would my heart had realized the truth so much earlier if I had even listened to its erratic heartbeat?
Would it have told me you would be standing infront of me, pleading...... begging....... for me to choose you?
"Please, Alora......Please." He said quietly, his eyes showing hope in such a way it made my heart ache.
I breathed, "Ominis.......... you told me, so long ago...... I wouldn't have to choose."
He frowned, breeching the distance again. "Alora that was nine years ago, things have changed-"
"Have they? Have they truly changed? Here I am........ standing in front of you, telling you I can't-"
"Because you're afraid, Alora. You're afraid of actually wanting something real, for once! For once, please..." He pointed to my chest, his index finger landing on my heart, "... what do you really want? What does your heart, truly want.......?"
My heart sank. Weighing on what I needed, what I wanted..........
I want to be happy.........
I want to heal.........
I....... I wanted him.
Him.
So badly. So fucking badly that I risked everything.
I risked everything......... to get nothing.
Nothing.
Nothing at all.
Ominis finger dropped from my chest, reaching for my hand in the process. His soft fingers grabbing mine in a calming manor.
"Alora?" He spoke softly, trying to reach me.
Looking down at our fingers locked. My mind drifting to all the times, every moment, every single time I thought Ominis was the one I could have had in the end.
He was safety.
He was my calm.
He was the warm blanket that comes over your shoulders after being stuck in the storm.
He was the hug you got from your father when you scraped your knees on the concrete.
He was-...... everything, I needed. Just not what I wanted.
My heart ached, my pride dipping in. No longer being able to take it. I was so tired of doing everything for everyone else. Trying so hard, but getting nothing back but pain........ when Ominis wanted nothing but just me............ just me, and only me.
Simple, plain, no doubts or fears. Just me.
Why............. why me. Why fucking me-
I hadn't even noticed he closed the gap even further, his hand pushing more hair behind my ear. His eyes searching, waiting for me to come back, for me to answer as he patiently waited for me to deliver the blow.
"Alora....." Ominis whispered to me.
My trance broke, looking up at him slowly. Our eyes meeting.
"What do you honestly have to lose?"
Now? Nothing.
Just my own betrayal of my own heart.
The clink of glass inside the kitchen through the window made me look behind me just for a second. Sebastian and Anne stood next to eachother, cleaning the kitchen together, Sebastian washing while Anne dried with a towel.
YOU ARE READING
Prince In Darkness Sebastian Sallow
FantasyJust when life seemed like it was becoming perfect again, fate has a way of shifting and turning for the worst. Someone had leaked that Sebastian Sallow killed his uncle, Solomon Sallow, and taken to Azkaban to eventually stand trial for his crimes...
