Khwezikazi.
Aunt juli drags her suit case down the passage and she stops infront of me when she finds me seating on the bar stool drinking a cup if rooibos tea.
She stares at me in disbelief as she holds her hands over her hips and she tilts her head at me.
"Where's your stuff ?"
"What stuff aunt Juli ?"
I ask and he drops her hands and she releases a sigh.
"Khwezi, you and I are supposed to be headed back to your father's house today, I don't want to play games with you."
"Angiyi ndawo phela Mina aunti, I am not going anywhere with you... your brother can burn In hell for all I care..."
"You watch your mouth ntombazana...I am warning you."
"Or what aunti ? Or what ? You will hit me, degrade me, call me a whore ?, what is it going to be ?"
She clenches her jaws and she folds her arms and she stares down at the floor for a few moments.
"This is the last time that you will ever set foot here, this is the last time that I will endure any abuse from you."
"Uyaiyazi I abuse wena ? Uyaiyazi?"
"How do you sleep at night knowing what he did to my mother ? What he did to me ? I was just a child aunti... I was fourteen... I was just fourteen years old..."
I tell her and I see her clench her jaws again and she looks away from me again.
"How could you protect such a man ?"
I ask as I get up from the stool and I start to walk towards her as tears threaten to fall down my cheeks but I won't let them fall, I need to pick myself up from the shallow level that I've fallen to and it starts with her.
"How could you protect a man that doesn't care about the well being of a defenseless baby, you know everything that he's done to us, you know it."
"Did he tell you about that one night that he came into my room and he touched me ?"
"My brother would never do such a thing."
"He did... he did it and i hate that i can't remember but I remember his scent and I remember this heavy feeling that I have in my chest... I might not know everything that he did that night but I know that he was there, and you can ask him yourself while you burn in hell with him because your going to pay for what you've done, both of you."
A tear strides down her cheek as her tough facade finally cracks and her shoulders begin to sag up and down.
She's crying.
What the hell is she crying for ?
"I didn't want to do it Khwezi..."
She says now as she looks at me again, cracking and crumbling infront of me.
"Ukhuluma ngani, aunti ?"
She clutches her chest and she cries harder.
"I didn't want to take her, but I was forced Into it... he told that this is what you wanted too but you grew cold feet, he told me that he was giving the baby up to good people I didn't know he would traffic her."
She says and I step away from her and I shake my head.
"A nurse came in and administord a small dose of sedative that's how I was able sneak In and take her while you slept..."
"No..."
"I thought I was doing the right thing, we all did, your father said that it was mistake and he didn't want his marriage to end so disposing of the baby was the only way."
