Khwezikazi.
I bite into the piece of egg that he's generously spiced with black pepper and paprika and I release a gentle sigh of pleasure and I close my eyes as this little piece of Euphoria dances on my tongue in a Beautiful sensation and the little invader that's growing inside of me jabs me a little bit on my side enjoying this little piece or magic his father has created for us this morning, he's been doing this a lot ever since I got here last night, the most active he's ever been and at some point he did so whenever Sanele spoke.
"I was thinking..."
He adds as he puts away his pan inside of the kitchen sink and he grabs his own plate and his glass of juice and he makes his way to my side of the island.
Have I said how incredibly beautiful his home is? It's like a copy and paste of the penthouse and it fits his aesthetic so well.
It has dark cabinetry and a black marble free edge counter top and beautiful bronze finishes and i won't even comment on the rest of the cozy feel this home is and how beautifully connected the outdoors and inside is connected, the set up of the kitchen makes sense because the way he uses it it just has a functionality that suits well for him, everything is in odd places but I watched him cook me breakfast and he just flowed like this set up didn't make sense to an average person.
I look at him as I give my avo toast agood bite before I look away from him again.
"I am listening."
I tell him as i look at him now and I try not to be awkward because my being here as it is is a confusing phenomenon.
"I was thinking that I should move in with you, temporarily that is... I am worried about you."
He proposes and I look at him now to see if he's serious and yep, by the serious look in his eyes he's definitely serious.
"I don't think it's a good idea."
"I think it is, more especially since the funeral is coming up you need somebody to be there for you incase something like yesterday happens, or worse."
"What happened yesterday was only just a one time thing, I am good."
"Khwezi, your pregnant."
He reminds me and I nod my head at him.
"And I am good."
I tell him too and I put on my most convincing face but who am I kidding ? I turn transparent whenever I am around him, he can see right through me.
"How's about I stay with you just for the week, just so I can also know that your okay, especially this week."
This week is obviously going to be the week where everything needs to be arranged for Babas funeral which is obviously going to be this week. None of them have called to tell me that he's dead none of them, but I don't blame them because I literally cut every single one of them off, I blocked everybody, Busi and her brother included, I didn't want them in my life anymore.
"Sanele, i get that your worried about me and i am super grateful for that but you need to also keep in mind that we're in the middle of a break up, I don't want this living arrangement to complicate this process, it's too soon."
"Okay, how's about I just spent nights, in the morning I leave you be in your own space and to your daily routine, three calls during the day to check on how your doing and commications via text throughout the day...."
"That sounds suffocating Sanele."
"Okay three calls a day and I still get to spend nights."
He negotiates and I shakes my head at him, none of this is going to work.
"It's not going to work."
I tell him and he looks away from me.
"And this is final Khwezi, I'd be irresponsible if I didn't do this, it's already enough that your denying me being involved in your pregnancy."
He says as he bites into his food now and I shake my head at him.
