Anele.
"Just make sure that you pray over him with this candle every night until it finishes and the dreams should stop."
I tell her as I hand her a white candle wrapped in a news paper and she gives me a worried look and I take her hands inside of mine and I give her a comforting stare.
"Trust me... everything is going to be okay if you just pray over this... you'll both be okay."
I assure her and she looks at the candle in her hand and she gives me a slight nod.
"Thank you so much for your help, I don't know what i would've done if it wasn't for you."
"Don't worry yourself about it... I am here to help you."
I tell her and she gives me a small smile before getting up from the met and she bids me farewell.
And as soon as she is gone I tie a white doek around my head and i kneel down on a thatch mat and I light a candle and some incense at the bottom of my bowl and I wait a moment for everything to disperse into the air and I put my hands together and I bow my head.
For the past few months the Dlomo ancestors have put their feet on my neck and they have come at me with everything, my marriage my children and my mental health, they have tried and tested me to the worst I've even had to sacrifice an animal just so i can catch a breather, I've sacrificed a lot so I can stay in this marriage, my job, my womb and my sanity even when the Dlomos have physically expelled me from this marriage I came back every time, I refuse to let my family break apart, Mandla is all we have. oGumede have been understanding but the one thing they torment us about the most is Owethus gift and the fact that we aren't willing to guide her into it yet angers them, these people are dead and I wouldn't expect them to understand when I tell them that I won't put my daughter through what I have been through with this gift, it's her choice at the end of the day should she choose to walk into it and I won't allow them to use her as they please and allow her in matters that don't involve her, Owethu is just a baby and It's my responsibility as her mother to protect her, even from the dead. I fear everyday if they might do what they did with Siya and Kabos child to mine and that's taught me that these people dont have mercy but there's always that one elder who I am positive is Mandlas great grandfather, his wrath is the mightiest of them all when he steps into the room all of them step aside and when he has spoken none of them can contest, I've always counted on him to fight my battles whenever they have decided on wagging their wars against us he's always the voice of reason but lately with this Owethu battle he's become quiet and i am starting to worry about my ability to keep them happy with however much Mandla and I continue to give.
I am okay having to bear all the punishment just so they lay of her but it gets heavy, I don't sleep and I keep the kids worried about the amount of time I keep spending in this room but I did tell Mandla to explain to them why I have to be here, I didn't tell him to tell them the whole truth just the part where this is for them and for their future.
The candle blows off on its own, and I release a sigh of exhaustion when this happens because yet again I've come to a dead end.
I get up from the carpet and I put my shoes back on and I walk out of the guest cottage with my spirits down as I walk back into the house so I can fish for lunch and get started on supper, the quicker I finish making dinner and getting the kids prepared for school the sooner I can get back to trying with oGumede again.
Between consultations this back forth with these people and the kids and Mandla, I barely have any time for myself and couple that with the after effects of Khwezi and Saneles messy marriage. I couldn't care less about those two and their problems, as long as they both admit that their both just two mad people with a lot of love and a lot of fight and accept that they will never be like any normal couple because of who they are the sooner their marriage will be restored, this is what I wanted to tell Khwezi until I realised that she needed to see this on her own and Sanele... Sanele is a lost cause at the moment those demons he has have eaton away from him to the bone and it seems that Khwezi is going to be the only thing that will break him away from this if she just accepts her past and finds peace with what has happened, Nikiwe might probably never be found and she needs to accept this possibility as painful as it might be and focus on the children that he and Sanele have now, Switzerland isnt going to save them and neither will it save that man from himself. I've accepted that I am basically a slave for the Gumede ancestors that's my fate the and the sooner they accept it all the more at peace they will be and I am afraid Stacy is not prepared what for the Gumede ancestors have instore for her either... and Kabo, oh my dear friend... she's still yet to finish with these people.
