Katlego.
"So what does this mean ?"
I ask as my eyes move to find hers again and she looks up at me from the papers on her desk and she fixes her glasses.
"That if left untreated it could potentially turn into something much worse... Mrs Kghaboesele-"
"Moeketsi... it's Miss Moeketsi."
I correct before peaking into Lethos stroller who still remains fast asleep before I look at the doc again.
"My apologies... Miss Moeketsi, you've neglected your body for far too long post partum that the repercussions are already starting to show and I am afraid the treatment will soon stop working if we continue at this rate."
"All I need is a few more months for my son to grow, just a little... then I can start focusing on my health... it's just us now, we have nobody else..."
I explain and she gives me a sympathetic smile before giving Letho a small glance Inside of his stroller.
"I completely understand, but if we don't do this now, you might never have a tomorrow with your son again."
She warns but I only give her a small nod and a small smile.
I am strong, I think to myself, like I have been doing for the past few weeks.
"I am strong... I can do this..."
I tell her and she goes quiet for a little while, almost as if she is trying to come up with a conclusion for me of some sort almost as if her heart is telling her to stop me from doing this but nothing will...
She sighs a little while she leans back against her chair.
"I'd suggest that you check in with me every two weeks just to ensure that your vitals are still good Until the time comes... as your docter this is my legal obligation and it is the practices policy."
She presses and I nod my head, I can get off with just a few check ups for now.
"That sounds good to me."
I tell her and she gives me a small smile and she grabs her note pad, quickly scribbles something on it and she hands the paper to me now neatly folded.
"Make sure that you follow up with your prescribed medication I'm sure that they can give you a little more time until you decide on your treatment method... but evidently this is something that your going to have to do."
"I know, and I will follow on my treatments and our check ups, thank you, doc."
"And remember, every two weeks."
She reminds me and I give her a small nod.
"Two weeks."
I repeat and she gives me a small smile.
"Don't forget to look after yourself as well."
"Yeah I know, and thank you again."
I tell her as I now get up and I walk out of the office with Letho still fast asleep in his stroller.
I decide to take a small walk with him to the nearest coffee shop considering that it's Saturday and it's barely peak hours yet ontop of the fact that this neighborhood is actually just genuinely relaxed.
I find curbside seating and I park Lethos stroller closely next to me and I scope through the menu for something scrumptious as soon as a waiter tends to me , I feel like eating something unhealthy today.
It's been almost two months now since I've made the decision to leave KZN and so far it has been very peaceful but also equally stressful. Adjusting to life on my own is something that I never thought that I would have to do In my life at one point moreover single parenthood, I don't know how long i intend on keeping my location a secret from Sanele if he doesn't already know but something tells me that he's already found out long long ago but has decided not to find me just yet.
Everything has been coming down on me heavy, i haven't checked on my mother since I abandoned her at the hospital and dumped her on her siblings, my divorce is still in the process of getting finalized, I don't have a job anymore and I am slowly going broke and yes, I did resign from Saneles company... I needed a fresh start but above all else I am happy with the decision to stand up for myself and to put myself first before the world it's is incredibly hard but the sense of fulfillment inside of me makes me feel like I made a step in the right direction.
