Khwezikazi.
I wait by the park bench with ice cold bobba in my palm, they've been my latest craving and I haven't been able to get myself to stop having them more especially those little bobba gummys at the bottom, they make every cup of worth it.
I take the last sip of the drink until the ice cackles telling me that I've milked everything and I contemplate having to get up and take a walk to that Cafe and order a new one, I've gotten really lazy these days and I am not surprised at all because ive gotten into a habit of letting myself go these days, I just move how I feel whenever I don't have to pitch pitch duty and defend spoilt rich kids who's parents tell me how much I am on their retainer and that honestly to me screamed future Gumede children more especially that Nkanyezi, that one is untouchable.
I've only seen Tlhabane a few times since the last time he spent the night at my house mostly because we intended on what had happened being a one night stand and nothing more just until we got his divorce out of the way because I am still his lawyer and I could get disbarred. I still haven't even told him about my pregnancy either but I always tell myself that need to tell him at some point, so that he can know what he's getting himself into because since that night the tension is there even in our meetings in the office, but however i keep thinking about that night, it was different, Sex with Tlhabane is different, a little bit on the rough side but it's good different, I can't say it's the best sex I've had but it always leaves me satisfied.
I watch as the little children play in the jungle gyms and sand boxes while their parents wait and observe just like I am doing at the side of the play ground, anxious mother, trying to pry their toddlers from eating the sand in the sand box to older toddlers playing about with their peers that they probably might never see again and for a moment I don't ignore that I am pregnant and I will be one of those prying mothers in a few months and it hits me in a weird way that I almost feel like the situation i am in is pressuring, I want the baby, main reason why I haven't thought of an abortion but I am scared beyond anything and scared that I am actually alone this time, it's just me and this little human i keep ignoring inside of me.
"Hey."
He greets as he strolls Melo in his little stroller and tiny little sandles and a navy blue sun hat and my heart melts immediately when my eyes land on him, I haven't seen him in ages, forgetting that he didn't turn up here alone.
He looks really grown but still the same he still hasn't lost his chubby physique and he smiles at me as soon as he sees me and he stretches his tiny arms towards me and I dont waste time grabbing him out of his stroller totally ignoring his father now.
I kiss his cheeks so much as soon as he is in my arms and he releases little giggles and I can see tiny teeth growing from those ever exposed gums of his, it's shocking how much I've missed since the last time i saw him. His curly hair is starting to come into character and it's grown longer now, i know Stacy didn't want to cut it and with reason because he's very cute and I can deny the fact that he's definitely a Gumede, the genes are definitely there if you ignore the light brown curls and his mother's hazel eyes.
"It's good to see you."
Siyanda says as he tries to grab my attention and I look away from Melo and I look at him now as the smile from my face slowly fades.
"I can't say the same for you, but I am however happy to see Melo."
I say the last part as I look at Melo and I kiss his cheek again and he giggles.
"Khwezi I know that the last few months haven't exactly been okay but, I've been worried about you and Stacy keeps asking if I know how your doing."
"How ironic, considering that non of you have ever cared to ask."
I remind him and his features turn soft as he looks away from me.
