Katlego.
"Are you always this needy ?"
I ask in attempt to tease him just because he keeps calling me needy too everytime I ask for any form of touch from him which he does so himself too. Touch me, kiss me, cuddle me and sneak in a few squeezes on my bum all since last night. I don't know what else I am yet to see or experience with this man but everything seems so good right now and it feels so right, like I didn't make this decision seven months after my divorce and ten months since I've broken up with Tlhabane and I am happy, from just being in his presence alone.
"Oh so I am needy?"
He asks finally catching on to what i am trying to do as he squeezes a good chunk of my bum and a giggle escapes from my lips.
"Haven't you realised how touchy you are ? It's insane, it definitely screams needy."
I reply and a small deep chuckle escapes his lips as I feel his chest vibrate against my back when he wraps his arms around me and he kisses the side of my face while lean back onto his body.
"You know what my dad used to say to me ?"
He asks and I shake my head waiting for him to finish.
"He used to say "Nkululeko ntombi iya thintwa, especially if she's yours.." He said this while he wrapped his arms around my mother, just like I am right now with you..."
He says as he gently squeezes me.
"Manje let me fulfill what my father's taught me to do."
He finishes and I dont dare question him because I love it too.
"Sounds like your father was a wise man."
I say and I hear him go quiet before he releases a sigh.
"He was, it's just a shame that we didn't have much time together."
"You know you can always build new memories with me right and maybe with Letho someday."
"Letho has Sanele to build those memories with."
"But you'll be here too... I don't want you going anywhere."
I tell him and he kisses the side of my face.
"How do you feel about getting married ?"
He asks and I go quiet.
How do i feel about marriage right now ?
"I don't think it's bad idea... why do you ask ?"
"Because I want us to get married someday soon... and I feel like it's important for me to ask this question especially since what you've been through lately."
Soon ?
"I don't have bad energy towards getting married, i still view marriage as a beautiful thing and it's still something that I'd like to do, definitely in my future but would i like to do it now ? I don't know Lu..."
I tell him honestly and he releases a sigh.
"What would it take for me to change that ?"
He asks and I release a sigh of my own as I turn around this time and I stare up at him.
I caress my hands up his arms and I gently stroke them.
"Time I guess... I just made the decision to move back to KZN and before I got sick I planned on getting to know my son more and getting my life back on track. I need to look for a job and a house and then I can start thinking about other things... I hope you understand."
"I do and I also think that you shouldn't be worrying yourself about all of that right now. Especially now since you escaped from rehab your not a hundred percent okay mama."
Oh gosh this name.
"Im okay and I feel better, I feel healthy."
"But nobody's cleared that with you yet and I think it's important that we shouldn't ignore this fact."
