Crazy Over You

📚 Chapter 57 📚

James

One way I remember wanting to express feelings for Callista was by learning and making her a flower crown. She caught me off guard and asked me about it. I lied and said it was for my mom. She left me alone which I was grateful for that way I can finish it. I wasn't any good but I wanted to make something nice for her.

But then her dad made her a flower ring. She called herself a beautiful bride and a beautiful bride deserves to have the most handsome man. Yong laughed and asked her how handsome. I listened, hoping I could match it but then she said how the guy needed to be more handsome and stronger then him.

For me that was impossible. I can't even escape my dad's hold when we play wrestle. How was I suppose to be stronger than Yong? But then it goes worst. She added that he needed to be bigger and taller which for me seemed impossible since I was smaller than her back then.

I felt useless. But then her brothers added. I needed to be smarter than Chilly. I needed to be faster than Dennis. I needed to be funnier than Eros...

I didn't know how to deal with my emotions back then so I pushed her because of the horrible expectations.

Mom gave me a beating for it.

I was just so mad and frustrated that I would never be the guy she would consider.

But I grew.

So, It drove me mad.

I needed to see her.

She's avoiding me. Well, not really since it's only been a day but she's not answering any of my messages. I know she sees them and is refusing to answer them which I hate because damn it, we kissed. We both knew what we were feeling but the fact that she's running away terrifies me.

So I did what any stupid, logical man would do.

I cornered her.

...

"I know the habits you have when reading." I mentioned, looking a page of a book I took from her shelf.

"My habits?" She questioned. "You mean when I look like I'm in another place when I'm reading?" Callista asked confused, using what I told her.

I knew coming here and cornering her would mean I would need to be honest. My plans for confession at graduation needs to be advance since I can't ignore that kiss. I refuse to pretend it never happened.

"When something surprises you, you slightly raise your eyes brows but it quickly goes back down." I face her. "When you think something is about to go bad or hurt you, or when it's a scene that has conflict, your lips then slightly goes apart. And when the bad or hurt does happen, your lips are shit and you quickly inhale and hold it as if that would make it go away. You have to look away to take a break, a breather." I explained, needing her to understand that I have been watching her.

I have always been looking at her.

That for me, it has always been her.

Callista sits frozen.

"And there's your smiles." I mentioned. Her expression changes to confused. "The soft ones tells me that it's something cute. Something that causing you to fall in love." I know that smile so well because I wished she would smile at me like that or at the shit I'm doing for her. The things I'm doing to try to win her heart. "It's not bright nor big but sweet, gentle and soft. It's the same smile you gave whenever you fall in love with a scene in a movie, when you saw the old couple dancing together to the music of the street that one time in Spain."

I can't stop.

I won't stop.

"Then you have the bigger smile. It's with no teeth but a bigger smile, that one tell me something even cuter happened or something funny. The smile with your teeth tell me a character did something funny or something romantic. Your bright smile tells me that you love the scene and that you need to read it again but can't because you want to know what happens next." I know it all. I've studied it all. I've seen it when she explains the story to me.