Bieber Struck

Jackie Chapter 45

I hadn't left my room in days. I didn't even know how long it'd been since I've left my room, much less my bed. Jessie came by three time a day to give me food but I barely ate any of it. I just know that I laid there on that purple rug and started up at the ceiling without blinking replaying the scene over and over in my head making up scenarios that would've happened if I hadn't been there. Would he not have felt something watching him and turned around or kept on going with Caitlin? Would he forget about me in that minute and forgotten all of our promises? My long hair was hideous in clumps and my face probably wasn't doing any better at the moment. I just sat and thought over and over. I'd try to move but my body wouldn't let me. I couldn't stand not moving anymore so I picked up my phone off my nightstand where it had been for the last few days. The battery was dead so I found the charger and plugged it in. As I moved, every part of my body felt like it was cracking and popping and getting used to being put back into motion. I opened my blinds a little bit and bathes in the teeny bit of sunshine that peeked through. I heard my phone go off multiple times and finally looked at it. I had thousands of texts and calls and notifications from every app possible. There were so many calls and texts from Justin and I couldn't stand to look at them. I cleared all of those and went onto Twitter. 'Caitlin and Justin' had been trending for two weeks. So that's how long it's been. I saw tweets and mentions of me with pictures from that day. Some people were blaming Justin for cheating, but the part that got me was, there were even more people who sided with him saying Caitlin was better than me and I just wanted his fame and money. I closed Twitter as the tears rolled down my face. I saw texts from Adam and Selena, but I couldn't trust myself to respond. I went on Instagram and read all the comments. The part that hurt me, I guess was that none of these people knew me and yet they still chose to write these hurtful things down. I couldn't take it anymore. These people didn't know the real me. But they were going to find out. I opened Twitter and tweeted nine words that would change my life.

"You guys are about to meet the real me." And that was it. I picked up my phone and read the writing on the back that Justin had put in. I looked at it until the monster inside me grew. I picked up the phone and chucked it as hard as I could against the wall. I put all of my hate and anger into that swing and I watched it make a hole in the dry wall. I felt satisfied watching it shatter the wall and the screen. The next thing I did I did without feeling. Justin seemed to like my long hair and when I put it into buns. I picked up a pair of scissors from my desk and started cutting my hair. I turned my back to the mirror so I couldn't see what the hair looked like. Piece by piece I saw brown hair hit the ground. With every piece that fell I remembered everything that had happened since me meeting Justin. Him hitting me with a door. Snip. Him kissing me by the lake. Snip. Him promising me everything on the stage. Snip. Snip. Snip. When I was done, I turned around and looked at what I had done. I felt NO regret, NO more grief. I went to the bathroom and took a quick cold shower and washed my now short hair. I was wearing new, fresh, clean clothes and headed downstairs. I went to the kitchen and put a bagel in the toaster and yelled for Jessie.

"Hey Jessie, could you call the salon lady who comes over to our house?" I asked. Her mouth was hanging open and I kept a straight face.

"O-okay. Sure." She said stuttering.

"Oh, I also need a new phone, my old one is sitting in a hole in the wall. Could you buy me one? I'm not ready to reveal myself yet, but for now, I just need someone to fix my caterpillar eyebrows and get me a phone." She nodded and sprinted out of the room. I think I like my new look. It commands authority, respect, and independence. I could do this. I could show the world the new me. I will never be known as 'Justin Bieber's girlfriend' ever again. I will be known as Jackie Thomas. THE Jackie Thomas.