His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 52

Luke

It kind of hurt when Hewitt told me straight to my face that what we have is nothing but a hook up, I mean I know it started out as just a hook up for me, but it became something more for me, I mean I know it now, I have feelings for Hewitt, and to think that he can't reciprocate them, it stings, a whole fucking lot.

And with every day, it gets harder to hide it from him, sometimes I just want to kiss him and tell him how I really feel about him, but I can't, I know Hewitt will laugh at my face, and probably tell me how stupid I am for letting myself fall for him, and it's worse because I can't even talk to anyone else about it, not even Stefano.

Why? Because he warned me, he fucking warned me that this would happen, but I brushed it off, I acted like it would never happen, and now look at me, I'm fucked, I have feelings for Hewitt, of all the people in the world, it had to be him.
The one person that can never feel that way for me, the one person I shouldn't feel that way for.

I sighed out and that was when I realized Stefano was still in the room with me, he was looking at me, his brows cocked and this questioning look in his eyes
"I wasn't going to ask before, but you're really rattling me off, what's going on with you"? He asked.

We were out, he had a meeting out of town and he asked me to go with him, it didn't take long, so now we were just chilling in a restaurant, I sighed out and looked at him, he was looking at me
"Nothing is going on with me" I muttered out and he just gave me a pointed look

"Tell that to someone that doesn't know you, Luke, what's going on with you? You've been awfully quiet all day, you keep sighing out after every five minutes" he rushed out, I forget he knows me so well, and Stefano is very adamant when he's determined

I can't tell him why I'm like this, or maybe I should, he's my best friend, if I can't talk to anyone about this, I should be able to talk to him about it, even though I know he's going to tell me that he told me so, he really did tell me so, but I didn't listen.
Instead I wanted to have fun, now fun has led me to this.

I shut my eyes and sighed out again "you see what I just said, you just sighed out after five minutes again, Luke what's going on"? He asked causing me to look at him, he cocked his brows at me "you know I'm not going to stop until you tell me" I shook my head, already knowing that he infact won't stop unless I tell him.

"I should have listened to you" I started already telling myself the 'i told you so phrase' he frowned and looked at me "when you told me to stop hooking up with Hewitt, I should have fucking listened" I whispered out and he frowned even deeper

"Why are you saying this? Did he do something to you"? He asked and i just shook my head, biting my lower lip

"Nope" I muttered out popping the p loud, just fucking rip the band-aid off Luke, it can't get any worse, Stefano was looking at me expectantly, waiting for an answer, or an explanation
"I like him" I blurted out, and I saw him scrunch his brows up in confusion

"Who"? He asked and I sighed out heavily

"Hewitt, Stef.... I like him, and not in the friendship kind of way" I whispered out, watching as he frowned, his brows working up and down, his brain trying to understand what I just said "I have feelings for him, and I know you warned me this would happen, I just...." I paused and clenched my jaw, looking away from him and out through the window, at the lady walking her dog past the restaurant

"No way" Stef started, shaking his head, I could see the disbelief and doubt in his eyes, but I couldn't laugh out and tell him I was joking, because I'm not joking "you're saying..." He drawled out and I just nodded and raked my tongue along the rim of my lips before I sighed out